Saturday, June 24, 2006
yEs!www.crappi.blogspot.com is up again (but with no updates!) Hahs
-my kind of life-
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Do not you feel solemn reading my lengthy and *boring* entries at times? Sometimes I do wonder what caused me to unintentionally lengthen my entries. It is also undeniable that there are entries which are short.What I personally feel is that I ought to close down this blogsite. Afterall, the very first objective I purposes in my heart is to impact the readers with what God has done in my life, and to share God's love through my entries. It was certain that there was a period of time when I felt in my heart that my entries served as a motivator not only to others, but myself too whenever I read about it. However, it is sad to say that such entries seem to have ceased. And typing every single entry has then become something rather tormenting to my brain because I always force my whatever juices to be squeezeed out from my mind...Blogging has inevitably served as a medium for me for me to practice my English language as I take note of my grammar in my entries. Attempts to use new words which I have learnt seemed to be rather futile. This would seem rather disappointing, but I cant exactly be bothered by it since I have other more issues to attend to in my life.My love for blogging has reduced from 100% to a mere 10%.. So I have decided to abandon this whole site while only occasionally visit this site so as to link me to my close friends. But no updates for sure. =)
-my kind of life-
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Having felt uneasy after posting my last entry, I decided to delete it.It was after some time do I remember that I have got two personalities. At times, I do need space to be alone but then again, I do enjoy being part of a crowd. And I shall not elaborate much...P.S To Rong Shan, thanks lot for missing me! Hahs! I miss u too! Btw, Congrats to you for going to somewhere you've longed for.
-my kind of life-
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Sitting down and staring at the screen of my laptop certainly sparked forth several thoughts. Having just visited Raymond's blog (My primary aka SA's 1st 3 mths OG mate), countless questions came bombarding into my mind.One particular interesting comment that he made was that life is rotten, even with us Christians around it does not make any difference. Despite being a Christian himself, such a harsh comment certainly comes by more than a reason.I've extracted part of his blog entry (and I hope that he will not mind):The world is rotten; very rotten. With Christians around, it doesn't make much difference. Seeing people in church insulting one another; being sacarstic...
You see, how many of us are actually the people whom he have mentioned? Our second commandment as given by Jesus while He was on earth is to one another like we love ourselves. And by Raymond's entry, the question pondering in my mind is: do people like to insult themselves so much so they start to apply this insulting habit of theirs on others? If that is people's way of showing love to themselves, then that would be just the manner they are going to treat others.But of course, if the habit of criticising the acts of oneself is not present in one's life, I see no reason for this particular being to start criticizing the people around him/her. In short, this person is no different from a hypocrite. And I strongly believe that such a behaviour arises due to a dearth of a particular substance in a person's life; (in my opinion, it is) love.We must always remember to treat people only the way we want others to treat us. Would it not be unreasonable for an evil or self-centered or stingy being to expect great gifts and treatments permanently from the people around him/her?But nonetheless, I still believe that the love of God is able to change such a person for the better. Let's just say that if I have come across someone like I have mentioned above, I might just befriend with this person and keep him/her in prayers. A person's physical features (eyes, nose etc) cannot be changed, but his/her heart can be changed! That is why the world says that the only constant is change. This change is not confined in the realm of the economical or political situations of every country, but it also applies to the people alive on this earth!And so, I believe that there is no heart that is so 'strong' which will not be melted by the love of God as demostrated by His children; us.For me, I have been changed so much because of the love God and His children has poured unto me when I first went to church.I do not deny that I used to be a self centered and evil person. Living in such a competitive country, I believe that most of the kids would just act the way I used to... Recalling my Sec. 2 year, I kept all the notes I had and kept asking around for more summary notes from my friends.So when my classmates got to know that I had cogent points to support several questions as asked in Literature, they asked me the notes in return. Worrying that they might score better than me, I rejected their offers and told them that what the teacher provided in class was already sufficient. Such a selfish act of certainly terrible.That was then the streaming year for secondary school students. The only matter bothering in my mind at that time was how I should continue to keep my notes away from my classmates so that I could ace among them. I did rather well for the first half year in Sec. 2, but my performance dropped for no particular reason during the end of year examinations. Despite feeling disaapointed, I had somehow attained the top 3 position in class then.Feeling satisfied, I told myself that I want to work even harder the moment I promote to Sec 3 back then. But then more doubts surrounded me when the thought of me being in the class of the top 3s in other express classes came to me. Inside me, I thought that it might have been impossible to continue to excel with so many bright students. And how I should protect my own notes so that they will not steal my stuff from me...That was the me then.However, things took a new turn unexpectedly when I attended a Christmas celebration at CHC with my band seniors in Dec 2002, just the month before my Sec 3 life started.Over there, I accepted God and wanted to know Him more because He was able to provide me with the unending love that many people have been searching for in their hearts. Slowly, I learnt to share things, not only in my family but in school too. The Bible states that we should love people like the way we love ourselves. So the self loving me, started to apply this.I started by helping anyone in my class who needed help in their studies. I also shared with them the personal notes that I made during my revision then. And slowly, I find myself learning more than I could have imagined. And as I helped, I continued to pray to God for wisdom and understanding. And when the year ends, I remembered myself getting a fifth place in the whole express cohort with 6As out of 7 subjects. That was also the most glorious period of my school life.If God can change me, and use me so mightily, I see no reason why God cannot do the same for you too! All these are gifts and promises God has promised in the Bible, but there is just ONE condition; you have to accept God into your life. And that was what I did in the first place! Have you?
-my kind of life-
Monday, April 17, 2006
Though I am back here blogging, I personally feel that I have lost my inspiration to blog. For the past few busy days, I remembered myself wanting to blog about several issues. However due to the STM (short term memory) that I am experiencing, all those matters are forgotten in both my mind and heart. This brings to light about something: that these issues are afterall not very imprtant in my life. and that explains why I do not put in much effort to keep them in rememberence. *Evil Laughters!*1 thing that keeps my life exciting and adventurous as ever is my walk with my living Saviour; Jesus! Life is hardly a routine though my school timetable and the things I do in school are planned out on a weekly basis! Surprises will just spring out from my left and right every now and then! Hahs. These surprises can sometimes be pleasant and enjoyable. But nonetheless, unhappy surprises do occur.Let's take for example the Chemistry and Math lecture tests which I took last week. The questions came as shocks for me, that is simply because I spent more time scratching my head than writing. I admit that the lack of practice was the core to me acting in a asinine manner during the test.Those two tests definitely dampened my heart! But somehow, I was determined not to let setbacks stop me from moving forward; scoring well in future test. So I have since then picked myself up and am determined to continue putting in my best in my studies. Hahs. If I can pick myself up from setbacks and move forward with an optimistic attitude, you too can! (PS: NYJ, you can do it too! Go go go! And stop telling me that you are going to get 3/30 for the next Chem test!!!)Great suprises are often laid after bad experiences! I had a great Easter Celebration with my church on Sunday!The morning service simply refreshes me despite me waking up early to queue up! Hahs. Praise and worship was vibrant as ever and on top of that, the drama simply tops everything up! Most importantly, it was the word preached by Pastor Kong that moved my heart closer to God! If I had not accepted God earlier..where would I be now? What would I be doing now? There might just be a very high chance that I would be idling my time around and well, hang out late in the night in some unknown places with my friends. Working to spend my weekends might just be another option. Lols.It is true that money opens up my pathway, such that I will be able to buy things that I have always desired. But, what will the meaning of life be if I just slog my weekends away for the sake of money? Tell me!!!Alrights, perhaps i should really shut up before I lengthen my post. Hahs.*Your attitude determines your altitude*
-my kind of life-
Saturday, April 08, 2006
I finally changed my blogskin! A yummlicious skin! *Evil Laughters!*I enjoy munching on cookies as much as baking cookies! Hahs.My last lesson for Victorious Living ended today with a short quiz which I did kinda well. And off I am, aiming for Authority For Victory! In the midst of the lesson, Brother Eric (who took over Pastor Zhuang because he is away for Taiwan's Emerge) mentioned something that lead me to two drops of tears (one for each eye).He said that it would be very sad if we do not bring any friend for the coming Easter celebration because the people around us would have missed out a very great chance of listening to the gospel and everything! Personally, I had a 'record breaking' when none of the friends whom I have invited attended last year's Christmas services. A total of 4 services, and yet my friends count is ZERO.In my heart, I was utterly disappointed. Not in my friends, but myself. I was upset to as why I was unable to think of more friends who could have been free on either the 24th or 25th Dec 2005 to attend Jesus' birthday party. I felt that I could have done more to spread the joy to my friends.So this year, like what Brother Eric has preached, let me (and us) start doing more for this year's Easter! I visualise my friends coming for a great gathering in Expo Hall 8 next Saturday and Sunday. And I can foresee them walking to the front of the stage! If I can see it, I can have it! For faith does no lies in the things that are seen, but things that are not seen!This is definitely the best season of the year to invite my friends to church! Because I know that it is on Good Friday that Jesus died on the cross to bear our sins and it is also on Easter that Jesus rose to show everyone who He is!Jesus brings forth salvation to everyone of us! Without the cross that He had carried up the hill of Calvary, and without he blood which He has shed on the cross, I doubt I will be existing here today!So for us who are already saved, let us all reach out to those who have yet to hear and SEE what Easter is all about! And for you who have yet to join me for service before, avail yourself and come with me to hear and SEE what Easter is all about!!! =)
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
=)I enjoy being who I am.
-my kind of life-
