Tuesday, May 31, 2005
it seem to e a real long time since i've last blogged.
I just reached home not too long. I did not expect our first PW meeting to end that soon. Aniway, that's even better coz i am able to write this entry and spend some time with my math tutorial which is due tis thurs morn. -.-"! I do look forward to meeting my PW mates coz they are simply the most accomodating and willing people i hav come across in doing a project. It is true that none of us are close/know one another well. HOwever, that does not hinder us from displaying a sense of unity and teamwork whenever we meet up and discuss our project. Jian Chao, Kan Hong, Angeline and JOhn! u guys + gal rock!
Aft this, i will be heading to church for Emerge 2006 PM!! I am looking foward to Irene sharing a testimony about TANGLIN SECONDARY SCHOOL. True indeed, the small group is experiencing a revival now.
I rmb how worried i was when all the sec 4s and 5s graduated last yr. The population of the grp dropped drastically from 17 to 5? Deep down in my heart, i was always wondering why we hav yet to experience a revival despite gathering at my hse for a short/long prayer meeting weekly. Sometimes, I do feel very disappointed and tired after all low attendance of the prayer group. Everything got worst when we 'lost' the place to pray in school. HOWEVER, there are people in my life whom i will never forget though we are no longer as close as before. These are the people who have guided me when i became a student IC for Tanglin last yr. THey are the pillars of my life other than Jesus.
These people are none other than Shannon, my cgl who had been concerned abt TSS PM grp and my spiritual growth, my cg members like Ray, Felicia, Joyce and Calvin who have been there to support my PM group in one way or another. I believed that they have all prayed for me and my PM grp! THks lot!
Last but not least, the pp in my precious grp. my dear Sparkles, i do know that I am unreasonable and demanding at times. But, u guys have been great children of God by giving your best/all in attending PMs and organising activities for the group and friends. Most imptly, i love the initiative u guys have always taken. Though u all are young, I hav enever seen age as a barrier that stops us from doing great things!
These pp are:
Jin Cai-- He is the guy who made sure that everyone in the group was updated with our prayer timings and annoucements. A wonderful guy whom i find enjoyment whenever i see him. I certainly miss his presence in my life!
Ken-- My dearest cg member. THough he has always been suan-ing me and cooling us with his jokes, he is afterall, a responsible and trustworthy child of God. This guy ensured that our group is always prosperous. Yes, he is e treasure of our PM group! W/o him, we will not be able to carry out any outings and buy gifts for ME!! and other members. =)
Edwin-- My band senior. The first time i went to City Harvest, I went along with him tgt with other band mates like Bao Ying and Benson. After some time, he disappeared from church. However, people who have rejected God once might not reject GOd forever. I am super duper elated to see him accepting Christ into his life once again. A great guy who took the courage to pray in front of the prayer group the first time he joined us. Let's give an applause to him! I'm real glad to see him loving God more n more daily. I do enjoy his performance in POS!
Sorfian-- My act quiet but not quiet cg member! -.-"! ah ha! caught you! well, he is the guy whom i felt that has taken the longest step toward God. I personally feel that he had always struggled to pray in front of our prayer group each time we gather. However, he did his best and never fail to disappoint me each time he took up the courage n prayed!
Sian Yang-- Apparently, he has backslided! i wonder why too. But i do really hope that he will return into the loving hands of the Lord. He has been a great guy in our group by entertaining us! I am not to sure which what and how he did that, but his presence in our group has certainly made a difference!
Melissa-- My wonderful sister in school and in church. I have always admired her strong and presistent love for Christ. She is one great gal who has always tried her best to attend PMs despite her mother's objection at times. I love her lots and I certainly miss her!
Bryant-- I have not realli chatted with him. Nevertheless, i am great to see you commiting your time to JEsus once again after all your struggles in life! Btw, i want you all to know about the miraculous healing he receieved recently! He has a serious fall while doing stunts one day. He landed on his head and according to the doctor, he would experience a blood clot which will lead him to coma. HOwever, by the healing power of Jesus Christ, he got healed the moment pst Zhuang prayed for him!
Sarah-- My wonderful earthly and 'heavenly' sister whom i feel that she has grown alot. From there she has started to sing in front of the group and CG in tongues! A great gal who always pester Daniel to teach her guitar after each prayer meeting. And not to forget about her evil laughter that i miss deeply nowadays!
Shannen-- A wonderful sister-in-christ whom i felt that she has grown alot! She is one gal who takes the initiative to do things in our prayer group. NOt to forget about the enthusiasiam she has tgt with other people like Daniel, Sarah, Ken, Jin Cai. Whenever I see her, i will think about the incident whereby the whole ceiling of her kitchen caught fire when she tried to fry some wedges.
LAst but not least, Daniel-- The guitarist of our prayer group. THough u hav always been mischievious and playful, i know that u do love the Lord and are obedient towards Him. It has been a great joy knowing you. And I will never forget that u r the one who has taught me the four basic guitar fingerings which I am still practicing. =)
Though not all of these people will read what I have written, I still will not regret typing out all these. Simply because u, the readers, have known how impactful these people will be when u meet then and have a relationship with them. These are the people whom i foreseen that they will be great people in the Kingdom of God if they continue to love God and obey Him with a willing heart.
Quote of the dae: Relationships might not last forever, but do bear in mind that the short relationship is enough to change your life!
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
everythin is gg fine in my life. God is working in my life. My life seems to be much better nowadays, though i'm still stuck at the bottom of the mountain of hmwk.
didnt realli manage to blog bcoz there was some problem with my internet connection. But God simply work things out for me! BEfore i got connected to the internet, i spoke in tongues. Naturalli, everythin went smoothly! THanks alot Jesus!
LEt's go back into the past..
i had a wonderful weekend in Indonesia celebrating my grandma's bdae. HOwever, my playfulness resulted in me mugging on mon nite aft i'm back..arg..
ai ya!! i hav no idea wat i'm gg to write but i wan to say somethin:
Aft reading s74's blog, i miss then alot! i wonder y too but the bbq we had at sherwyn's hse came coming back into my mind..i regretted for ponning sch ta often and also for rejecting emme's offer to cls outings again n again..
-my kind of life-
Monday, May 16, 2005
i admire him lots!! weeh!! =D =D =D =D =D
-my kind of life-
Saturday, May 14, 2005
i wld like to mention somethin b4 i start writing tis entry: to all readers, tis is gonna b a long entry but, i can promise u ta tis will b a great one, esp to the christians! =)
tis whole week has been rather hectic for me. i sleep in the morning and wake up in less than 5hrs time. as usual, i dozed off during lectures. howeva, i want to say a big thk u to e pp sitting beside me al these while, esp yun jie. they r e pp whu've been giving me encouragement to stay awake, to do my work and they've given me new hope in staying awake during sch hrs!
next, churchwide conference by pst. Phil. it IS certainly a life-changing experience for me. i rmb clearly how i looked like and how i felt when i attended it on tues nite. i was sick and and i looked expressionless. perhaps it was the pool of eigth ulcers on my lips.
at e end of the first nite(tues), i realise myself leaving the place full of hope for my future. i cant explain it but i juz felt ta the fire in me has been ignited! my spirit had been revived and yeap, the river of God is beginning to flow in my heart. e whole presence in the auditorium is so strong ta tears kept flowing down my cheeks. GOd's goodness began to surface in my mind. i begIn to realise ta God is there for me everynow and everywhere. He has not ABANDON me! i know ta i am walking in a valley rite now. my life is filled with disappointments and obstacles. but, that is nt gg to extinguish my love for God! i rmb wat God has written in the Bible: put our faith and expectation in God rather than man coz they'll bring forth disaapointments,but not God! next, as written in the bk of Ehpesians, trials and tribulations r in is world for our glory!
dearest readers n cg members, one of the keys to living a fulfilling life is to PERSEVERE. tink abt the happiness n glory u hav each time u survive a trial? tink hard! for mani times, all of us r attacked by the devil who weakens our mind. but pls, rmb ta GOd has said in the Bible ta He has not given us a spirit of fear but one of a sound mind.
attending e conference has given me a vision ta all the schools, INCLUDING the JCs, is gg to hav a revival. in JJ, everyone will open their hearts and go after Jesus. i see it, and know ta it's coming. pp, if tanglin can experience a revival, there's no way other schs/colleges cant!!!! i know ta it can, and it will come to past!
ytd, i had ODAC training and we went for rock climbing. i shall nt elaborate much coz i didnt realli enjoyed the whole prac. i felt rather down.
hey!! i went for POS training ytd, reached esplanade at ard 745pm. well, we learnt the dance moves and new stunts! it was real real real exciting. i see it coming forth to us. it's a total diff feeling i first had when i met up with them! i love them lots and i love J.C.(Jesus Christ) even more!!! e whole prac ended at 1115pm? well, yeap, it was late..and i reached home even later. -.-"!! nvthe less, i still enjoyed myself and didnt regret rushing down to join them for the prac despite my tiredness aft ODAC's rock climbing session. =D
oh well, let me first update ya with my schedule for the whole of this weekend and next week. doubt i'm able to update ta often coz of my heavy workload and my tight schedule for everythin.
lata i'll b heading to NJC's funfair to supoprt liu yun and yeap, we're gonna treat it like a small 4e1 class gathering. but aft the whole fair, i'll b home to chiong my hmwk and to prepare for my test. wosh! tmr will b e most awaited dae of the week for me! i'll b attending serviceS and serving! i miss my ministry lots!! i didnt manage to help out last week coz of mummyS' dae cele.
quote of the dae/week: God is not looking for ani sacrifices ta we make but rather, our obedience ta brings forth a heart of willingness. =)
-my kind of life-
Monday, May 09, 2005
i miss myself. i wan to b whu i wan to be. e one gal whu used to be so confident and full of smiles....
-my kind of life-
i feel so lost rite now. there isnt ani sense of security in my life.
in my life, all the relaitonships that i hav seem to b a hypocrisy. there isnt ani true deep relationship i hav with e pp ard me. i feel so left out.
moments of happiness ta i hav do not seem to last long. things will somehow, always, go the wrong way for me. at tis pt of time, i feel ta i am walking in a valley. it's all abt misfortunate events again n again. i did put in effort in everythin i do, but i juz dun seem to see my fruit. i screwed up both of my test papers todae and was abandoned by my father in city hall. in e end, i had to rush to take a train in the hope of getting a chance to see a doctor. i rushed till the extent of jay walking. and guess wat, i nearly tripped over a small hump when crossing the road! thank God ta i was able to gain my balance fast enough before the bus approaches me! i cant imagine myself being knocked down or watsoever.
my ulcerS r hurting me..tears..inner shouts for help..feelings of helplessness n insecurity.. i need some rest fm e Lord.
Verse of the dae:
matt 11:28
'Come to Me, all you who labor n are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.'
-my kind of life-
Friday, May 06, 2005
i got to realise somethin todae: mani pp dont read my blog coz they find my content too 'religious' for them.
well, perhaps mayb coz they're non-christians? but i hav to make tis clear. that wateva i've typed is true and is e fact. no one can denies it!
had rock climbin tis aftnoon during ODAC. we tried the lil wall behind LT5. it was a challenge for me. well, basicalli i can get form one side of the wall to the other and i hurt my neck and right arm while trying to pull myself up. ta is simply a whole load of crap! arg!
attended jj talentime earlier on. frankly speaking, it was an eye opener to me. e performance is much better than wat i expected. mayb coz tanglin's standard was real low.
quote of the dae: no quote but a question. my every dae seems to be a routine for me. is yours like tA? =(
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
quote of the dae: "If God is ur partner, make ur plans big." DL Moody
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
my nose has been 'running like a water tap' since i woke up form my nap tis evening.
no matter what, i'm gonna perserver! my work load..wosh!
okie, i'm feeling rather satisfied now coz i've completed my NE quiz! and not to forget that i've put in effort in answering the questions. =)
-my kind of life-
