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Monday, November 28, 2005

Before I realised it, another day has gone by.

There seem to be so much things for me to complete with so little time given daily. And how will I be able to meet my needs/expectations for my every day life?

The answers lie with us having good time management and strict self discipline. For countless time, it has been much easier to think about doing a matter than to carry out the actions for it. This seem to be a statement that everyone knows but does that mean that everyone understand what this sentence is actually refering to?

*Too many things are revolving round my mind..It is all happening oto fast for me to catch up...*

-my kind of life-

This blog is dying?

I certianly hope not. I will try my best to squeeze in the time to write in new entries. Almost for all the entries, I do really enjoy writing them. The feeling of excitment lies deep within me whenever I start to pen down my thoughts and afterthoughts of an events. And of course, all those, if are good, certainly requires alot of effort and time!

Nothing comes great without sacrifice. In life, there are many sacrifices which we have to make. Perhaps those are sacrifces for something which were not even meant for us to have in the first place, but most of us are just unwilling to let go and kept holding on to it tightly like a little child...

There are also sacrifces with which we made in preparation for the future. Whatever we are involved in at this very moment certainly happens for a reason. You will never know what it is unless God reveals it to you. (*Deut 29:29)

*Life is given to us for more than an event..Deep reasons lie beneath it..*

-my kind of life-

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Packed is the word to describe my daily schedule this time as I work. It id definitely not busy because, I still have the time to spend time with most of my friends.

I went for JC cluster prayer meeting this evening and was blessed to the extreme. God spoke a word through Xiao Ting who laid hands on me. Xiao Ting is older than me by just two years but she has just risen up to be a powerful and respectable cell group leader. Nonetheless, she had always been the one giving the members involved in POS 2006 the encouragement and support we needed back then.

God told me that I need to be like Elisha. And, I personally want to! Like Elisha, I want to hold on to the anointing of the LORD tightly. Now, I want to grab the Holy Spirit and tie it closely in my heart, in my mind and in my life!

I need to walk pass Gilgal, then Bethal, Jericho and lastly Jordan! I need to conquere all the obstacles in my life. The distractions have to be removed. Being single minded and focused are definitely the keys to revealing the glory in us; success.

I need to and I must be willing to. There seem to be countless stuff that I am so afraid to admit in life, let alone, letting go of it! And now, I must learn..I must mature and make the right decisions..

-my kind of life-

Monday, November 21, 2005

It's been long since I last updated. I will not deny that many events have taken place over the past four days while I was away from this blogging world. And on top of this, things have been going very smoothly for me by the grace of God and also the protection that He has given to me.

Revelations did come to me but, I forgot to jot them down and guess what? I forgotten about the revelations that was given to me! One word to describe this: TERRIBLE!

I did receive blessings this week and things are just coming so quickly in God's kingdom. His promises that He has made not only in the bible, but personally to me too, are slowly coming to pass. It's interesting! And, I deifnitely to look forward to greater visions with a focused mind as days pass by.

What else can I say but that I really appreciate Pastor Kong to the fullest that I can! He is a wonderful man! A marvelous man! A man whom everyone should and will look upon! The energy exhuasting and time demanding efforts that he have put in while preparing life impacting sermons for the church willingly is a sacrifice which I will appreciate. God is good to have placed such a pastor in my life!

*Moving on is the best option in life. Because moving backwards will destroy your life-as for this, you should think about it. And that staying onto the same spot is equivalent to wasting your life.*

-my kind of life-

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

I used to think that the one comment that working adults made was nonsensical and well, false. And of course, the statement that majority of them made was that studying is far way better than..working.

For many times, after I heard that, I often 'mocked' of them for making such a lame comment because to many students, we find it tough to stay and school. And there might even be a few who think that staying in school is boring and well, unnecessary. Earning money was what many of us want to do at this moment. I must admit that I am no exception.

However, this prepective of mine took a 180 degree turn after I started working on Monday. I work in an office, form 830am to 520pm. It was tough and boring to me. Tough not because I do not know how to do the tasks that were assigned to me. But rather, I feel very stupid doing all the sortings of the paper till I experienced and blockage on my first day of work! I literally went 'crazy' inside my mind!

For many times, I finally understand why working adults made that statement and how true it is! I should be able to treasure my school days from this experience onwards. Hahs

As a working adult, a day can just pass by very quickly. It just begins by you waking up and rushing for work. And by the time you knock off from work, go out for awhile and reach home, it will be around 10pm? And there you are, feeling exhuasted. Oh well, this might not apply to all but that is at least what I am experiencing now. Lols.

*I want to return to Him..*

-my kind of life-

Sunday, November 13, 2005

I do understand that I have been telling everyone that speaking aloud with no actions is nothing. But, do allow me to say this to you, God loves you more than what you think.

In your heart, you may feel that God loves you alot by answering your prayers, by being my comfort when you are down and by serving you as a compass when you are lost! But do always remind yourself that God loves you more than all these that He has done for you. Simply because He loves you so much till the extent that He has sacrificed the life of His son just you, a normal sinful human being.

Well, some of you may just be thinking that I am insane to type all these, or even superstitious (as for the unbelievers)! But, have you ever thought if you are even qualified to say that? I did not mean to sound harsh but, based on what do you think that you are able to comment when you have yet to experience the power of His love? Or when you do not even give God a chance to prove that He loves you?

I know that God loves me. And that, He loves me more than what my mind tells me. I wanna draw closer to Him..

-my kind of life-

Friday, November 11, 2005

God has always been good to me. On top of all, He is a faithful God of mine, a friend of mine.

How will you treat a friend who has abandoned you time and time again? Or even, forgetting you? Is your response to ignore that person so as to make your friend guilty? Or will you break your ties with that friend of yours? A forgiving person like you might consider giving your friend another chance..will you? =)

Yes, I personally should admit that there are times whereby I feel weary and begin to let His existence pass by me. Moments when I felt so happy that I forgot to include Him into my joy and laughters occurred too..

I do feel sad having forgetting such a good friend and comfort. Because, the times when I felt useless, intimidated, aimless in life and fearful, He has always been the one who listens to me. Other than listening to me, He provides solutions to me and even help me to work wonders in my life!

And now, after time and time again of 'abandoning' Him, I went back to Him..to speak to Him..to share my heart felt issues with Him.. the gracious and merciful heart of His opened up His ears to listen to me. More than that is that His arms are stretched out to comfort me.

Deep in my heart, I still know that I need Him. And that, my heart is still with Him because no matter what happens, His name will just linger round my mind...

For the past few days, He answered my anxious prayers. I thank Him for all those. I got my job today as I have prayed for. And over the past few days, things went really very smoothly for me, especially for my Oral Presentation (part of Project Work) which every J1 in Singapore had been talking about. If you want to know more about it, I suggest you asking my personally because my eyes are closing soon.. =)

*nites!*

-my kind of life-

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Can I say that my blog entries are no longer like the way it seemed? There no longer seem to be any update of my daily activities nor my afterthoughts and feelings after it. My entries are full of what revolves around my mind at a particular instant. Why?

I alone, am unable to explain that. Perhaps now is the season for me to have a change? =)

*change is the only constant in this world*

-my kind of life-

Compromise should never be an option that we take in our life.

*Find it familiar? =)*

-my kind of life-

Walking past strangers brings my mind alive. Oh well, do not ever get the wrong idea! What I meant is that various thoughts will just come flowing into my mind whenever I walk past strangers, or even notice the actions of theirs! Hmmm... Hahs

*My time is my life*

-my kind of life-

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Breakthrough after breakthrough!

Finally, my cookies are baked crispy in and out! Wooh! Hahs.

-my kind of life-

I might at anytime be shut off from this internet working world at anytime. My computer seems to be working at the time it feels like it. I felt so sabotaged!! Hahs.. Lols

-my kind of life-

Saturday, November 05, 2005

I felt much better. I am slowly learning to pick up the bits and pieces of my life...

It can be of anything that have took place over the past few days, or..even weeks!

Well, today has been rather an unexpected day for me. I have planned to take a rest but all that didnt take place. I went aorund Singapore today! Lol. I was at the West(my home) and I travelld to the North. After which, I went back to the West before heading to the East and last but not least, the South(or central?) part of this island which I lives on.Hahs. But all in all, I kinda enjoyed it. +)

*Nothing takes place overnight.*

-my kind of life-

Friday, November 04, 2005

Wow! I bought something at Attributes sale today when I went over to church for a short fellowship! A new instrumental CD by CHC in 1997. Soothing and God's presence is ever present... I like it...

-my kind of life-

My life..

How will you depict my life? How do I appear to you? What kind of impressions have I left on you? All these, you can keep it to your own. I need not know your comments and let alone your feedback to my matters.

Yes, you must be thinking.. Wow..When did Lynn become so fierce? Or even..What has happened to her?

I am not being fierce, neither have I changed for the worst. All I want is to lead a life based on the standards which I feel comfortable rather than the expectations of the world or the people around me. There is definitely no need to compare me with other people simply because God has made me in a special way; different from every other people.

I need to stand strong and not cry. That is all that I have to remind myself at all times. Yes! I have my own moments of insecurity, doubtfulness and fear. Many times, I do even feel intimidated by the critics coming out from surrounding people.

I need to have my own share of rest and peacefulness. Even then, there are times when I will lay low and keep quiet. So, I have no choice but to give my friends an answer that says that I am tired in order to be accountable to them for my quietness and so-called unusualness.

How will you feel if you were me? And, will that be how you are going to react?

-my kind of life-

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Alright, life is different now. And it is naturally for me to blog my entries in a different manner. =) However, my mind seem to be experiencing a blockage. As in, I have yet to shorten out the thoughts in my mind...

-my kind of life-

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Transition?

-my kind of life-