Wednesday, March 30, 2005
results r out! and i'll b taking c math, chem n phy. felt a lil sad coz i couldnt take f math. well, gonna believe tis as part of God's plan coz it's true ta i might nt b able to handle 4A levels sub. =)
juz wanna say a big thk u to pat n xin yu for realli being there for me by tagging. i realli misses ya gals lots! miss ya miss ya miss ya!
ytd, i chatted wif amanda n darwin. both of them were my clsmates during my 1st 3 mths period in sajc. darwin has been sulking abt everythin over there. hearing how much he hates ta sch kinda relieves me coz at least i know ta i'm making the rite choice by chossing jjc. as for amanda, i was feeling sad coz she's gg to leave for US in june for uni course. howevea, i was feeling elated coz i know ta she's preparing for a great future now yeA? hopefulli she can realli get into mass com. =) gg to pray for her. now, i'm wondering how's pui doing? she a thai fren i got to know thru ODAC in sa. realli miss her! and yeap, till now do i realise that roufang has went to vjc. i tot ta she wld stay in sa, but i was wrong. nvm, wish her all the best over here!
testimonies abt God's goodness is flooding my heart this week. i'm gg to share during cgm tis week! shh...i'm nt gg to leak anithin out. =)
tmr will b the orientation camp for the 2nd intakers. well, pray that everythin's gonna b fine n i'll juz stop feeling slpy..arg!!
quote of e dae: when u're angry, juz take a deep breath and count to 3. only then, will u realise that it's nt worth being angry. (NB: pat!! sounds familiar?)
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
i'm takin everythin step by step. hopefulli, wateva i'm doing now will last. i'm praying for spiritual strength to keep me gg on. =)
everythin's gg rather fine now in my life, not much of a disturbance from pp ta i dun wanna name and peace has been granted to me. not to forget abt the pp whu've tagged to encourage me. thks lot peeps!! esp to xin yu!
quote of e dae: good character can be corrupted under the influence of bad company.
-my kind of life-
Monday, March 28, 2005
sch started and cant deny that i'm still nt use to everythin. e earli waking up and e lectures are v tiring for me. gosh!
my life's in a mess now! i seem to be leaving in a world controlled totally by my emotions instead of my commitments/principles. i seem to be getting frustracted v easily. impatience is overtaking my heart slowly, and everyone ard me seem to b getting my scoldings every moment.
save me from this sinking 'boat'...pls..
-my kind of life-
Friday, March 25, 2005
went for a one dae tour in batam tgt wif mel and her parents. was fun though tiring. i gotta come across n know stuff ta i nv used to know.so, e trip wasnt a waste in e end.
kinda feelin pissed off now, and whoeva is coming over here n interrupt my silence, i'll definitely sound a lil cold. simply coz i need time to cool off, and trust me, i'm trying real hard to keep my cool.
i hate it when pp forget the promises ta they've made; when pp come and irritate me, esp when i dun particularly enjoy the presence of ta someone; when pp approach me when i'm in an extreme bad mood.
quote of e dae: there isnt ani for todae. but rather there's a reminder for myself, and ta is to keep myself cool no matter wat happens.
-my kind of life-
Thursday, March 24, 2005
first thing first, gona say a big thk to xinyu for tagging the lovely msg! =) i'm sure we'll be able to catch up wif one another yea?
sch dae at jj was much better than ytd. atm is getting betta. guess wat? i met han xiang, my childhood fren, and he cldnt even recognise me. -.-"! if jia yi reads tis, he betta rmb tis and pass tis on to han xiang!!
during mass dance, i realised ta my male partner is a trombonist from fuhua band. wosh! so we chatted a lil while dancing. lol
everythin was draggy todae, esp during the debrief for F1 to F3. nvm abt ta. deep down in my heart, i'm real glad ta my sec sch mates waited 1hr30mins for me in e canteen b4 proceeding off the JP for a meal. we had a hearty tok and hav realli gotta know one another even more.
i brought my dental appointment forward coz of the orientation camp. though it was onli putting on the rubber bands to the braces, it was rather painful, unlike last week when i juz put the braces on. it really stretch my teeth so as to close the gap. wosh! sad to say, but it's true. one of my braces came out again!! arg!! cant take it..i gotta wait till somewhere ard 21st april coz dr sharifaq's gg overseas!! weeh! i wld love to tour ard the world too if i've the ability to!
quote of the dae: money doesnt make the world go round in my life! it's only the love and compassion of e ppl ard me ta realli touches my life and change it! =D
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
aft todae, do i realised that i've always been v impatient toward making judgements.
i seldom tend to see the future while making my present decisions. for mani times, i wan to withdraw..but yet, i hav got no idea where i'll b heading to if i were to withdraw. ta was rather contradicting. i wan to withdraw while i wan to stay too.
slowly, i see more n more of my future being revealed to me as i waited patiently to make e judgement of my dae spent in jjc.
all i can conclude is that i need time, and that i must realli learn to hang onto time and perserver on.
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
all of a sudden, i recalled wat my new yr's resolution is. it's "spending time to build relationships". till now, hav i fulfilled it? i've nt totalli forgotten abt it, and am now in e midst of doing it. somehow, it really takes up a large portion of my freedom. but, whu careS? i love it, and am enjoying it. i love to fellowship with my cell grp members, esp ppl like ray and feli. they're simply wonderful sis+bro-in-christ! toking to justin and sebest also 'opens' up ears. i wouldnt hav realised mani stuff abt them, their lives if i didnt tok to them. i love all of them! =D
tis morn, tis statement crossed my mind: leaving my comfort zone, going the extra mile. aft dwelling in that statement for quite a while, do i realise that, "hey! it's time for me to do it. only then will i grow in the Lord and in my life!"
next, a qn popped up. i started to ask myself how? and where am i gg to start? there're so mani areas for me to start, such as doing more follow-up wif cell grp members, be obedient in serving God in my ministry, and realli go all out to obey God's commandments for us! where? which one is the most impt? tell me. tell me. shout it out to me! call me and tell me!sms mi! tell it to me!!!!
quote of e dae: knowing whu u r in the Lord's eyes gives u assurance.
-my kind of life-
Monday, March 21, 2005
-my kind of life-
guess whu?!?
-my kind of life-
Sunday, March 20, 2005
ppl's love for somethin will eventualli fade off. their enthu will cease overtime.
i read thur mani of the band alumis' blogs and i concluded as typed above. tinking back, i wonder how i managed to survive the hectic band practices, the endless scoldings form ms tan and seniors and the stamina to play repeated songs from morn 8am till 6pm(and even 730pm at times).
tinking back now, all those seem to be mission impossible to me. on the second tot, it might nt be true. i cant explain y, but my heart opens up whenever i sit with the band n play with them. the love for music juz kept rushing to me deep inside my heart. it's all so diff. sitting down and play and listening to it are completely diff tasks! true indeed, the feelings that we received in return differs too.
everyone seem to b disappointed over the low level of commitment tanglin band members hav given to the band. true indeed, i was shocked too. when i went back on the first dae of the camp, mani questions struck my mind.
questions like. "why the att isnt full?", "why everyone seem to b so lethargic?", "why isnt mai(the student conductoress) serious wif the band members, esp tis yr's sec 4s?" and "why so mani ppl(esp the sec2s) cant play the notes clearly and precisely?"
all those came into my mind as i sat down and listened to the band. in my heart, i had mixed feelings. i was hapi to see them but, was angry to see how 'committed' the ppl are. disappointments flooded my heart as i recalled the enduring times i used to go thru 2 yrs ago.
as wat pst has always said, we can nv expect pp to be the same we are. the way we do things doesnt assure us that they'll do it the same. diff pp, diff character.
i wonder if the current batch of students is realli diff from the batch that joined syf 2yrs ago, and also, 4 yrs ago...
-my kind of life-
=) my heart feels so much at peace now. i do not know why, let alone explaining it...
todae, pst sy's msg was realli great! tink i'm loving his preaching more n more nowadays! pls!! come n visit us more often!
dialect was real hectic for me. todae is the first time i panicked b4 the svc started. everythin seemed a lil chaotic and i felt ta i was messing up the whole place, somehow. howeva, i was calmed down once e svc started. enjoyed a short fellowship wif two uncle josephS, lee chao and zhi wei. was a short talk but nvtheless, i believed ta we hav all enjoyed ourselves. the guys went to warehse todae!! i wan to go! but i cant..coz..i'm a gal, so it's a lil inconvenient yea? secondly, i gotta reach home by 9pm(though i reached only at ard 920pm?).
everythin is so wonderfully made! ever since i came back from indonesia, i felt so blessed to b living in spore. e road traffic is nt so congested, and we hav got even roads for e vehicles to travel. it's so much diff from indo where congested roads r rather 'rocky'. no matter how bad the whole place seems to be, i must realli admit ta batam(an island of indo) has changed alot, the houses seem so much nicer than b4 n new malls r popping up!i'm realli lucky to be wearing braces during my trip over there. e undescribable pain restricted me to eating only particular food, which in other words meant that i will nt put on weight! =)
spore is wonderful! my family and frens are great! i love love love them lots n lots!
*my braces hurt alot..n it cut my lips..arg!!*
quote of e dae: life is good[and also, interesting! =) ]
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
tis is great! my com's finally fixed! woosh!
todae was a great dae for me. earlier at ard 5pm, i attended the south n jc cluster prayer meeting. aft which, i went for dinner then off to my bible study in church! wonderful wonderful. =) all those realli build up my spiritual life.
oops, i put on braces. i extracted three teeth last fri b4 gg off to queue up for pst benny hinn's svc at SIS. everythin is painful for me aft i extracted my teeth and nt to forget, aft i put on e braces. okie, i wont deny ta i speak in an airy tone and also ta my lips look swollen. -.-"! all thks to the comments of my sis n john! lol..
todae's cluster PM was wonderful! i could realli felt the presence of God moving around us in the room. especially when i layed my hands on the words 'tanglin sec'. all of a sudden, a vision crossed my mind. i could see tanglin prayer group exploding wif pp lke nv b4. it's gg to grow, esp our CGs. though i'm no longer in ta sch, i still care for the growth in e sch. e pp there hav realli been great pp to me. i will always rmb the moments we had PMs in my house. e support of e pp, e laughter of theirs will nv b forgotten. the bdae present they got for me was great, but i've yet ot use it! -.-"! so sori..coz..i've a lil difficulty using perfume yea?okie, i dun know how to use it, n dun see the need la..hahah..lol..
somehow, the idea of giving me perfume seemed to belong to my sis..why? basicalli coz she has been trying to give me presents ta i've nv used b4..like e sleeveless roxy shirt she got for my during xmas. lolx!!
tmr i'll b gg to mel's hse to swim! tgt wif mel, by n ade wil join us! it's been almost 2 weeks since we met up as a group of 4 ppl. =) miss them miss them miss them!
no matter how much i dislike SAJC, and how bad my relationship wif my clsmates is, i will somehow miss ta sch. all of a sudden, i miss the place and the pp over there. the pp aint ta bad aft all, they're nice pp yea? feel realli touched when emmy n chze sms-ed me. ta showed somethin; ta i'm still rmbed in their hearts. and nt to forget christl, coz there's an og bbq. thks lot peeps for rmbering me. love ya. =)
as i've tagged, i'll attend sch on 21st mar 2005 aft MIA for 3 plus weeks. =)
b4 i forget, i need to inform my supporters somethin! i realli wanna thk ya for reading my blog every now n then, but i'm juz so sad to inform ya ta my next entry will only come in(earliest) on sundae. coz i'll be away to indonesia to visit my grandma from fri to sat. =)
i realli hope t i'll be back on fri nite so ta i can attend the zone outing tis coming sat at sentosa. ya, time to tan myself again?lol..btw peeps, i'm rather tanned now..my arms are no longer fair, let alone my whole legs! ya, i went to kayak! and guess wat? i passed my 1-star kayaking course! okie, no big deal..lol..i'll go for e 2-star one soon. is there anione whu's willing to sign up the course wif me?(note: criteria is to pass the 1-star course. =) ) pls giv me a call if ya can make it yeA? pls pls pls..hehe
quote of e dae: u can giv w/o loving, but u cannot love w/o giving!
-my kind of life-
Monday, March 14, 2005
hey peeps!! do ya miss me? =) well, ta's e question i'd been asking everyone ard me! lol..as usual, i'm in mel's hse. went for band prac earlier on! and yeap, i was blessed! cool!! mr wong us lunch, so yeap, i saved $4. =) last week was tiring but worthwhile. y? i went to attend pst benny hinn's healing crusade. it was indeed an eye opener to me. somehow, God's mighty power was revealed like i nv experienced! that was fri n sat nite. on ya, on sat nite, 6 pp actualli squeezed into my dad's humble lil car..lol..was a lil crowded la..but praise b onto e Lord ta all of us reached home safely. =)sundae, e most exciting dae of e week!! though it's our own church svc, e mighty presence of God is still present at SIS(spore indoor stadium). everythin was cool. cant deny but God's presence was realli realli strong. e strongest of al ta i'd experienced. i juz felt God falling on me when we prayed. my tears kept flowing like a water tap..my hands were trembling.i know ta God was in me. i felt realli felt. joyous moments filled my heart when i began to see healing taking place toward e end of e svc. i became more excited when i saw a dialect church elderly walking up to stage to witness God's healing ta took in him. realli v v blessed!and of course, i invited pat n peijing for our special svc. i felt realli great ta they joined us. i red pat's blog and was real glad ta deep down in her heart, she accepted Jesus. However, i believe ta that is nt enough. why? simply bcoz she did nt open up her heart to God. i know ta it's tough to go down to e altar call n receive Jesus coz most of us will feel intimidated n embarrassed. but let me tell u all ta it's not embarrassing nor intimidating to receive Jesus simply bcoz Jesus had taken away all of our shame by taking up the cross 2k yrs ago! i used to b a sinner but, i responded to e altar call n receive Jesus. God is moulding me to whu HE wants me to be rite now. no one says ta it's gonna b easy, but one thing ta i can assure is ta e harvest will b plentiful!i realli hope ta pat will accept Jesus wif not only her heart, but her mouth too. Proclaim it! =)Quote of e dae: pp nv care how much u know till they know how much u care.
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
God is faithful in the promises that He has made with us. Whenever i am feeling disappointed, He is there with me. His words came surrounding me like never before. Last nite, karen(dialect church)called me and asked abt my results. We chatted for quite a while and she started to pray for me over the phone. it was a really nice gesture of hers. I feel really better. And something better came popping out! Straight aft we ended the prayer, rou xin's call came in. we talked for a long time(it's long coz it's e first time i ever tok to her for such a long time). toking to her not only gave me spiritual strength but has also renewed my tinking. instead of dwellin over e grades ta i got n why i got such grades, i shld, instead, thk God for being there with me during my exams. i know ta i hav given my best shot, no regrets, no sadness. e grades ta i've gotten is part of God's plan. To many of us, we might find it ridiculous and even may 'hate' God for Him breaking His promises in not granting us the grades that we want. dear frens, i do feel sad, i do feel angry initially. But now, i've gotten it over n hav straightened my thinking. all these r part of God's plan. i know that He is preparing me for a higher calling in life and that He wants to place me in another school which i am provided wif more opportunities to learn and a place where i can impacted the lives of the pp ard me.Pastor preached that God gives us a calling which we like to do. one thing ta i know is that i will nt be in Sajc and i doubt i will ever return there. 15 pts, in the first place, hardly gives me ani chance to get into it and the place totally doesnt suit me. i dun like the environment. yea, so it's time for me to get gg and prepare for my future. =)i'm realli grateful to God for placing so many angels in my life. Angels like shannon, yuzhen, joyce, ray, felicia, rou xin, karen and even maria(my dialect church leader). All of them hav been there for me when i need them. They hav no doubt, bring me closer to e Lord. =)my dad's in china now, so i do nt know how i am gg to explain to him abt the fall in grades for my 'o's. As for my mum, i know that she is rather disappointed n not to forget that she got a shock when she heard my results. In her mind, she was tinking wat happened to me? Why did everyone's grades improved except for mine? yeap, i told her i do nt know why. Back at home, she knows ta i'm feeling sad n did nt place ani blame on me for getting such results. instead, she comforted me and said that i had given my best and yeap, she just wants me to be hapi. Whenever i hear abt how much my frens' parents pressurised them over scoring well in tests n exams, i feel really v blessed. because i know ta i hav a father whu doesnt blame me for not doing well in my studies and a mother whu always brew and buy lotsa tonics n bird nest for my health and always there to ask me to take a break whenever she sees me studying real hard. my life is realli blessed. Like wat ray had mentioned, i had a v blessed sec sch life with supporting, diligent yet playful classmates. Everyone in 4e1 treated me like their close fren and the class is so much like a home to me. thks lot. =) quote of the dae: Isaiah 55:8-9"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,"says the LORD."For as the heavens are higer than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts higher than your thoughts."
-my kind of life-
