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Saturday, April 30, 2005

i'm real sorry to hav been missing in action for e past few days. personalli, i feel that i've made full use of the time that was initialli meant for me to use the com. i was more prompt in finishing my tutorials and revision.

school, cannot be denied, is truly tiring and stressful for me and others. howeva, i still enjoy it. i love the stuff that i'm learning now! phy and math are getting me more n more hyped up! i'm ready for more of it! wosh! chem juz left me scratching my head most of the time. i wonder why.. =(

ytd was a truly meaning and tiring fri.

let's start my dae form the morn. i woke up at 640am when i'm supposed to leave the home at that time. was a lil scary for me. deep down in my heart, i was wondering if i shld go to sch. aniway, i made it to sch on time! Praise the Lord! wosh! =)

yeap peeps!! i got into ODAC!! weeh! =DDDDDD

during ODAC, my group had a great time scrubbing the mass tins. while waiting for the tins to dry up, e gals attempted to climb up the 'rock' wall which was abt 2m tall? i had a hard time trying to get up there. my arms were red and i kinda hurt my elbow. aniway, i got up there eventualli, with e help of hte guys. -.-"! *smiles* with yan yi's cam, we took a beautiful pic!! wosh!!

cgm was great! i love the msg and esp the 'practical' part when we got into pairs and prayed for one another. i realli wan to say a big thks to shannon for the prac and to feli for praying for me. God was flowing in the midst of us. feli 'shot' rite at my need. the one that i've been seeking for all the time and yet fail to find it.. i need more of God!

i went for church's overnite's prayer meeting. thks lot to net's parents ta we hitched a drive to church in his van! it was real cool! okie, it was my first time and i felt so great sitting in it. at the back , the guys were crapping and singing praise songs! wosh! had an 'interesting' journey!

having attending the prayer meeting for the first time, it was an eye opener for me. the hall was overflowing with people standing(and squeezing) at the steps! somehow, i learned that praying to God is nt merely praying, but praying with a heart of needs and desires. most imptly, i've learnt that we must pray with a heart full of expectancy or else prayer will soon be a routine for us.

it has been ages since i had a nice sleep. i slept for 8hrs, a true blessing for me. okie, i was awoken by my bro whu told me that we'll be meeting out aunt at 1245, i.e. 45 mins lata at JP for lunch at crystal jade. it was cool! enjoyed my lunch with lotsa laughters! aft that, we headed to Swensens' for desserts! that was rather a 'sinful' act yea? all the fried and oily food was followed by super sweet stuff.

i'm loving apple crumble more!! i strongly recommand u al to try that at Swensens'!! =D

okie, bao juz called me and she's coming over to my house. alright, she's coming over coz i'll b jogging lata. i wonder why i signed up for a gym membership card when i hardly had the time to go..hmm..

i'm gg to chiong my hmwk todae!! go go go!!

quote of the dae: if u view ur dae as a monotonous one, u'll lead one that's like that. BUT, if u view ur dae as one ta's gg to b filled with surprises, u'll lead one that's exactly like ta!

-my kind of life-

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

i'm soon becoming a nerd...

i find myself occuppied with books, homework and projects every single moment..

juz wanna say a big thk for e pp whu hav been encouraging n comforting me. u know whu u r, so i need nt elaborate. =) a big thk you again. i love u all.

-my kind of life-

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

everythin is pacing up.

e sch work load juz keep increasing when i hav juz made new commitments.

word power challenge and POS are two events ta i'm anticipating tis coming emerge! wosh!! time seems to fly v quickly nowadays..i need to go off n do my PI for PW and math tutorial 7. =)

-my kind of life-

Sunday, April 24, 2005

i forgotten to include some stuff.

i believe ta i hav to make tis clear to everyone. i despite pp who speak vulgarities and will definitely try my best to stop them from speaking those flithy words in fornt of me.

wherever i go, there're pp who use those awful words like nobodi's business. i feel utterly disgusted hearing it.

i wonder how long will i be able to hang on w/o being influence by them, everyone in jj practicalli uses those words as though it's part n parcel of their lives. my class, ODAC n my sec schmates r using them v often. i hav tried to close my ears but am no longer able to ignore such a situation...

-my kind of life-

back from odac selection camp at ubin tis aftnoon. i stinks! aft e trip, my muscles are aching. however, i enjoy the trip lots. i got to discover mani stuff which i nv knew. ubin is e perfect place to admire the stars late at nite(coz there isnt ani lamps over there, only torch lights which u must bring for the trip) and the perfect place to watch the sunrise. everythin is beautiful.

i woke up at 530pm todae though i'm supposed to reach church at 515. i woke up, changed, brush my teeth and dashed my way to church. woosh! serving God realli energises me!

tmr i wont b attendin sch, and will b rushing myGP module research essay n PW draft.

i do realise that my life's full of activities, but i'm nt willing to let go ani of them. i wan to hold them tight while i still hav the ability and opportunity. opportunities hardly knock twice.

ray, ta's e reason why i refused to let go some activites despite my tiredness. =)

in my mind, there seem to be tonnes of assignments, tutorials, projects and activities waiting for me.

let me set a goal. by tmr 2pm, i must finish my GP essay, then at 4, my GP artical. for the rest of the dae, i shall focus on reseaching my PW stuff and doing my chem tutorial.

quote of the dae: a winner nv quits and a quitter nv wins

-my kind of life-

Thursday, April 21, 2005

i cant explain tis but i do feel distant with e pp whom i tot i shld be close with, the pp whom i reali wan to build a relationship with.

there're so mani leaders in my life, yet i feel so strange wheneva i see them. tis ever occuring problem is juz so discouraging.

i'm starting to see my leaders as leaders; pp who i cannot build a true intimate relationship with. i miss those times when we spent time tgt like close frenz.

-my kind of life-

quote of the dae: it's time ta allows us to experience n love the goodness in this world!

-my kind of life-

tied up!

there r juz some times ta i feel so stressed up due to my packed programmes and nt to forget abt the endless stack of schwk i hav.

no matter how much hmwk is given out, i still enjoy sch. ismply coz of the frenship ta can hardly be bought by anithin. i must admit that i'm loving 05s19 more and more. e clsmates r fabulous!

e comfort i feel whenever i tok to them is wat i've been seeking for. e gals r great in accompanying anf accomodating with all of our individual needs. as for the guys, they're real 'cheery' and somehow, the screws in their minds aint screw properly. the crappiness ta came out of their mouths realli made my jaw dropped! howeva, i do enjoy it coz of the constant loud laughter ta can be heard among us! =D

e lack of slp seem to b driving me crazy at times. i do worry alot e moment e clock strikes 12am each night as i rush thru my work. i am always wondering wat time will i be able to turn in. e unnecessary worries seem to be dominating my mind nowadays..

-my kind of life-

Sunday, April 17, 2005

simple english rules my life.

-my kind of life-

Saturday, April 16, 2005

hey you! i'm a CHINESE okie?

lol. juz wanna remind all e ppl out there ta i DO speak chi and though i'm nt real good in it, my speech is still somewhat understandable. -.-"! i got a real real real shock when pp dared nt speak chi to me coz thay tot ta i wldnt know how ot speak it. aniway, i'm gg to love speaking it one fine dae. so, if u guys r willing, and r daring enough, do try and train me up for my chi lang. arg..

wosh! i attended svc one! true indeed, our God is a high expectation god. i can realli see the difference in svc one. it's no longer the normal litted lights ta filled the hall. instead, adult services r somewat similar to youth svc! it rocks man! go all the way CHC!

i love CHC! new cameras hav been bought for the live recording and also for service usage. everythin's juz too cool for me to resist!

tis week's svc and cgm sermons are juz so impactful. i love it when pastor Kong preach. the way he preach is juz so detailed. and there's tis anointing on him ta allows him to explain sophisticated sermon to the congregation as though it's like teaching US, teens, ABCs. there's juz tis magic ta flows in the presence of my almight God! does urs hav e same kinda power as mine? =)

to sum up the whole svc msg, it's once again abt the sacrifices ta we're able to make for God in our lives. if we ever wan to be anointed wif the presence of the Lord, we must first praise Him. Praise Him wif a willing heart. as i've learnt in Christian Lifestyle, praise is vocal, it is a sacrifice.

it's simply bcoz everyone will b able to praise God n jump up n down for HIm. BUT, at times when we're feelin low, tired and drifting away from God, r we still able to praise Him? tink abt tis..

somethin flashed crossed my mind on fri nite as pastor preached: when Shannon was teaching me Christian Lifestyle,on the topic thksgiving n praise, i rmb her mentioning pastor Sun. she told me ta the TWO moments ta she'll praise God the most is when she's feelin hapi n... sad. it's truli a sacrifice ta we must all learn in order to draw close to the presence of the Lord.

cg's sermon somehow renewed my mind tis aftnoon. all of a sudden, revelations kept coming in. and deep down in my mind, i made mani decisions to stay faithful to the Lord once again. not only faithful, but obedient too.

tink i shld get prepared for tmr's ministry outing wif the elderly.God's gonna bless the weather n the programmes! yippee! i'll b stationed at marina city park! yeap, ta's where i wan to be in. =D

niteS

quote of the dae: life's nt juz abt saying tis and ta. instead, it's abt acting on wat we've tot of n said.

-my kind of life-

Thursday, April 14, 2005

You Are A Pine Tree

You love agreeable company, peace, and harmony.

Compassionate and friendly, you love to help others.

A natural poet, you have a very active imagination.

You are very soft on the inside - needing affection and reassurance.

You can fall in love deeply, but you will leave if you feel betrayed.

What is Your Celtic Horoscope?

-my kind of life-

i love my class even more now!

they're simply too sweet for me to resist! thks lot to yunjie, peiyin, nicholas, david n tee yien! thks lot for ya concern! love ya peeps! wosh!

btw, i went to yvonne's hse for guitar playing todae. well, it is my first time gg over there to play wif them. i managed to learn some skills howeva, i do need lotsa practise to perfect it! aniway, i love them too! i love them to the core!! rock on! weeh!!!

-my kind of life-

woke up nt too long ago at 12pm. yea, i didnt manage to attend sch todae. all i needed was a proper rest so ta my bodi cld rest. true indeed, i woke up feelin much energetic than b4.

well, gotta start on my hmwk n revision b4 i lags behind others..wosh!

-my kind of life-

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

am i over tiring myself with my fulli packed programmes daily? frankly speaking, i do feel ta i'm doing far too much stuff at times. so much so ta i am feeling lethargic and restless during sch hrs. and i wont deny ta i'm close to falling sick...

sch was planned to end at 630pm for me todae. howeva, i decided to leave at4pm aft lesson ended coz of tsmb's syf. deep down in my heart, i'm v glad ta i managed to make it down and hear them play. as they played the pieces, i cld realli feel the effort given out by my juniors, esp ms d.tan. i know ta she has given her best to us during the short 15min performance. the hard work of everyone somehow made the music moved in heart..and tears began to accumulate..

sliver was all ta they wanted, and yeap, congrats to them! =)

it was rather unexpected ta fuhua n shuqun got silver..perhaps as wat wenjun had said, the judges r v v v strict.

as i did my hmwk ytd, i saw the class photos of 05s74(my 1st 3 mths class in sajc) and deep down in my heart, i kinda miss some of them.. pp like chze, emme, rf and amanda..wosh! i miss them lots!!! they're e ppl whom i personalli feel ta i'll rmb foreva though we've somewhat lost contact wif one another. tinking back, those r the ppl whu hav been there for me when i was sick and sad..i miss them..

quote of the dae: studying w/o understanding is a waste of time.

-my kind of life-

Saturday, April 09, 2005

i definitelt enjoy my stay in jjc. i cant control it but to fall in love wif it deeply!!

jjc! jjc! jjc! yippee!

okie, back to my main topic...

as i walked to the bus stop todae, an interesting question struck my juz awaken mind. it goes like tis, "wat's the most important sense out of the five:eyes, mouth, ears, touch and nose?"

immediately, i tot of eyes. simply coz i believe ta eyes bring about a whole lot of happiness, sadness, excitment, surprises and etc. let's juz put it tis way, the beauty of our surroundings can nv be describe with words alone. it has always been us, human beings, seeing and experiencing it in order to know the goodness of tis world!

i've heard pp trying to tell me how much they've enjoyed somethin and how beautiful/good somethin/one is. howeva, i do nt feel the greatness wif juz listening to it. to me, it sounded juz like aniother thing ta we r doing now.

oh! next, the most impt organ in our human bodies will be the heart. w/o it, we wont be able to hav feelings for the places/pp/events ard us. it is often the heart ta drives us either toward excellence or destruction. e function of the heart nt onli ensure our bodily survival bt our mindly one too. it's often the heart ta causes human beings to change for the better. the guiltiness in someone often drives him/her to repent.

quote of the dae: weakness is nt a denial of strength.

-my kind of life-

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

i'm so so greatful to God ta i'm in jjc rite now! i love my OG n my classmates! a huge grp of pp whom i feel abosolute comfortable with! =) ta's wat i'm seeking for since i graduated form tanglin sec.

apparently, my class has got only 8 gals out of 25 students. nt a v well mixture, but whu careS? as long as ALL of us get along well n are able to study n play tgt, nothin bad's gonna happen yea?

btw, i went back to tsmb on mon. didnt realli get a scolding from mr. wong. actualli, it was juz a usual tok abt how he feel abt the alumnis n how irresponsible we are. frankly speaking, wateva he had voiced out was 90% logical. i didnt tok back to him, instead, i brought myself deep down into my mind and pondered abt our conversation.

as i've promised, i shld be back to tsmb again tmr. 13th apr is arriving. i'm gonna pray for them. =)

oh gosh! i cant help it but to say that his pair of eyes is simply attractive. it realli reali attracts pp..wosh! i gonna be careful!

btw, todae's my cousin n zhihao's bdae. juz wanna wish them a hapi hapi bdae. =)

WORD of the dae: focus

-my kind of life-

Sunday, April 03, 2005

life's like this.

there're moments when we feel real high and low. happiness will definitely exist while disappointments n failures in life are inevitable.

HAPPINESS
i'm blessed tremendously this week! trust me! i'm seein my harvest now! my aunt has juz volunteered to help me pay for my close to $4000 braces, which means i need nt pay it with my own pocket money animore! Praise the Lord!

life's always full of blessings for me! i love God!

DISAPPOINTMENTS
i've decided nt to blame pp when they misunderstood me. perhaps, time is wat all of us really need. we need it to clear misunderstandings among pp, build relationships and etc.
nvtheless, i'll say that mr wong nt onli misunderstood me, but majority of the alumnis too.

FAILURES
yes, i've once again failed myself. i threw my temper n was impatient toward treating the pp ard me. that was e problem with me all the time, and a major one. i've been trying my best to change for the better, but i need more time and interaction wif pp.
In Christian Lifestyle, i've learnt that our character can only b developed when we interact wif e pp ard us and build relationships with them.

my previous maid left last week, and an indo maid replaced her.seriously speaking, i'm facing a great language barrier wheneva i try to communicate with her. my instructions no longer seem to b passed down correctly. there r juz so mani times that i've failed to communicate my commands down smoothly. being impatient, my volcano erupted. i didnt mean it and am feelin real guilty abt it. i had apologised to her earlier on, but am now wondering if she understood wat i told her..

i've decided to take the basic malay lang course for my IDP(interest directed programme) in term 2 when the registration opens. deep down in my heart, i see that decision as a solution to my communication problem with my maid.

how i wish i could sign up for courses like marketing, public speaking and courses relating to the business industry. nvm,i'm gonna cheer myself up. =)

quote of e dae: every thing that we're doing rite now is a decision that we've made.

-my kind of life-

oh yea..i got criticised by mr. wong again. frankly speaking, i do feel hurt n unfair at times. he alaways tok and scold pp b4 he gets to know the real matter of the stuff. assumption is wrong!! u know y, and i know it too! tink abt th emistake ta happened in yr2003.

deep down my heart, i juz felt so hopeless ta i'm always being blamed for nt gg back to tanglin band and help the juniors.. i'm busy wif my stuff, it's nt ta i dun wan.. T_T..

-my kind of life-

Saturday, April 02, 2005

i forgotten abt somethin real impt..

quote of e dae: e greatest aim in life is love.

-my kind of life-

todae's combined cgm was wonderful! the impactful sermon realli refreshed my mind! i love it and i love it!

my dream came running back to me when we spoke in tongues. words of encouragement spurred me to grab back my dream and to hang on! there are countless moments when i felt juz so discouraged and was near the edge of giving up. juz b4 i gave up and jump into the 'deep sea', michelle's prayers for us kept flooding my mind..

yes! i'll hang on to my dream tightly! i'm nt gg to let my purpose slip away ta easily! trust me!

cg dinner at pizza hut was great todae. deep down in my heart, i enjoyed it alot. simply coz tis was somewat e first time i had a proper meal wif them. a hearty chat was all i longed for. lookin at the blissful looks of net, nic n seb realli cheers me up! the crappin and laughters and lame stuff within me, ray, feli, ct n sorfian has once again opened up my heart! i love them all! =)

-my kind of life-

i'm back fm jjc orientation camp! first thin to declare: i'm still fine, neither sick nor injured! =) second thing, i survived thru the camp! tots of leaving the camp coz of ocassional boredom came passing thru my mind every moment. howeva, i preservered on n here i am! =D

OPPORTUNITIES.
the word that rouxin gave to me while we chatted wif one another over my pae posting late last yr. true indeed, i'm blessed wif abundant opportunities for me to express my true self. nt to forget the chances present for me to develop myself to a higher level. thks jjc.

God's goodness began to fill my mind during the camp. many stuff came flooding back..

i rmbered how angry n disappointed i was when i got back my results. e tot of me throwing my temper to God was unforgetable. simply coz i kept blaming Him for such an L1R5. Howeva, the sisters=in=chirst ard me kept encouraging me by tellin me ta it's all God's plan. initially, i was doubtin Him. but in the end, i decided to giv my heart back to God and believe Him for a turning miracle in my life...

true indeed, part of His plan was revealed within my 1st 2 weeks in jjc. i began to realise how God's grace has brought me smoothly thru the JAE process. there were mani pp whu scored a lower L1R5, and/or hav put jjc as their 1st choice didnt manage to get into jjc. by then, i begin to realise how blessed my life was.

thruout the orientation camp, i was totalli the LYNN CHOO i used to me. i missed the old me back in sec sch daes. and yeap, i'm back again into action over at jjc! JJ is a place where i feel absolutely at home. a nest where all my buddies cheered n sang tgt wif me. i truly enjoy those moments.

i'm beginnin to love jjc more n more. =)

-my kind of life-