Thursday, September 29, 2005
Life is more than just fulfilling our wants. It is about fulfilling the needs of others, not the wants of others though. But our own ability has set us limits and there is surely a need to seek for ways to meet this fulfillment yea? You may be thinking of seeking God. I agree with you, but how do you go about seeking Him? For many times, the results of everything we do has centralised our mindset and the importance on how we go about achieving success has long been abandoned in this results oriented society. Is this true in your life?*It doesnt matter how you have scored in your current assignments because the focus is on whether you have put in the effort and see an improvement in ur current task compared to the previous one.*
-my kind of life-
My mind seems to be lost in space right now. Hahs. I have nothing much to blog. But, I gotta let you guys know that I am actually doing rather well as in, I can really feel God's grace guiding me through for my revision and the papers that I have sat today. =)Do continue to keep me in prayers just as I will promise to pray for you! Hahs! =) I love you guys as much as I love myself yea? Whahaha
-my kind of life-
Monday, September 26, 2005
Just wanna say a big thank you to those who have been reading my blog entries and also those who visited this page! hehs. =) I felt really encouraged whenever people walk up to me and tell me that they have prayed for me. It is truly the love of Christ that prompts us to keep each other in prayers. Love is once again filling up my environment that is surrounded by the busyness of everyday life! And by that, the true meaning of life is beginning to surface again! =)
-my kind of life-
Friday, September 23, 2005
I do not have a dream! Instead I have many dreams! I see something happening to this area of my life! And next, a new life is being given birth somewhere else! I am visualising it! One dream is definitely not enough to fulfil my hungry desire while living on this earth!Having a dream is like running a race, a spiritual one. Working towards just one dream is an already challenging task in everyone's life, so what more can you expect when I am aiming for so many dreams at a go? Well, just take a good look at the people around you.. At times, you get to bypass someone who is so engrossed in working towards his/her goals that she seem to have lost the meaning of life.. But once again, that all depends on the kind of dreams the people have sought after!For me, I have many dreams. In other words, I have many spiritual raceS to 'run'! And getting involved in a race in the spiritual realm is surely different from the normal ones that we see on the running tracks. Such dreams can only be fulfilled with unending commitment and strong love. In fact, we need a large amount of energy to think and ACT on those dreams!There is definitely a need for me to draw the strength from God. 'Ask and it shall be given,' that is what the bible has mentioned! I look forward to seeing my dreams entering into this world whereby I can truly experience it on this earth!*If you care for me, keep me in your prayers. My so called prayer list is in the entry which I have published before this. =) *
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
The lack of inspirational text has encouraged me to go into 'hiding' for the next few days as I begin my preparation for my Promotional Examinations that will commence next Thursday. There are certainly many things that keep revolving round my tired mind, but I just am unable to sort its contents out, so let alone typing out a nice entry. =)Even though I seem to be suffering from a 'brain' injury (due to any reason that you can crap about), my mind is clear to as what it needs. I told God about it and asked Him to strength my mind and bless me with the efficiency to do my hoework. True indeed, God is faithful to the promises that He has made in His word and has answerd my prayers. But my prayers are not just going to stop here! It needs to be developed to a higher stage.Yes, if you guys are loving, do keep me close in your prayers. There are many areas which I need you and God to play a role in. My cell group! It is defintiely time for us to reap the seeds that we have sown over the past few months! Next, my ministry! It has not been made mention to anyone that actually Dialect Church is now trying to open up a new estate! Yes, that is none other than Teban Gardens! We really need the atm over there to be open and just pray that God's love is going to fill the whole estate as my ministry leader, one of DC's worker and me go down and have some prayer walks.More than that are the needs of my family members. My mother sure need to experience financial breakthroughs in her business. This applies both to my sister, Sarah and me. Good health is definitely what we should ask for, especially when God's word has promised us physical healing in the bible! The word of God says that when one is saved, his whole household will be saved! So people, do keep my younger brother and father's salvations in your prayers! As you have known, my Promotional Examinations are approaching, and I am way behind my revision. So I need you ALL to really pray to God for my health and also ask Him to expand my capacity as I begin to set aside time for Him daily. On top of that, I need the energy and strength to keep me going as I revise through my notes. More than that is that God will anoint me with His wisdom and bless me with His superb efficiency when I do my revision exercises! Thanks lot! God bless you and He will definitely bless those who bless His children! =)*M.I.A*
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
M.I.A
-my kind of life-
Sunday, September 18, 2005
The pig typing this blog entry is definitely becoming a heavy sleeper! Hahs! Yeap, I woke up at 735am this morning when I am supposed to leave the house at 740am. Lols. I managed to wake up when my mother asked me what time I will be leaving the house early this morning..I said 7...7.. And before I could think of the time, she quickly replied to me that it's going to be 8am soon! Lols. And popped! Yes la! Popped la! I jumped out of my bed and rushed off for a quick bath before running (and I do mean doing it literally!)to the bus stop to meet Zhi Wei! Duhx. And it happened that everyone was late by a little bit leh! Hahs. But that's okie! =)Today's ministry outing at East Coast was certainly filled with sea sand and fun! Alright, that is our theme! We serve hard and definitely deserve to play hard too! Hehs The games that we played may seem easy and simple, but the spirit and enthusiasm in every single one of us was simply marvellous! Yeap, each group consist of people ranging from my age (in fact, I think that I am the youngest over there leh..hmm) all the way to 50+! Hahs. Okie la, maybe there's only my dear Auntie Paulene who is over 50 years old! But the youth in her is surely evident while playing the games! Hehs. In short, I enjoyed myself! =)We headed to Parkway for fellowship in the evening and well, kinda enjoyed myself over there even though we did nothing special. Hahs. But I do know something about Singapore's politics and the occupation of an air stewardess!Taking bus 196 from Parkway to Clementi was certainly long! But, I do not feel it because throughout the journey I was there having wonderful conversations with Sharon. Thanks lot for entertaining me even though I know that you prefer to keep quiet while sitting in a bus. Oops. HehsUpon reaching Clementi, there were only Maria and me. Since she stays in JE area, we took bus 99. I asked her a few questions and once again, she really reminded me about many things in the things that she has spoken. Well, she may not know it but every single word that came out from her really got my mind thinking..even till now!True indeed, we must always be faithful to God. And there are three areas that we can be faithful in: In the little things that are given to us, in our finances and the things of others. Like what Pastor Richard Roberts preached in Service two: Never despise something that is small. It is because the bible has mentioned that everything big thing comes from something small. It is just like how big a tree can the small tiny mustard seed grows into!*In God's race, I am not sprinting. But it is a marathon which I need to pace myself.*
-my kind of life-
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Life's different. It no longer is the way it was. You are just a 'spectacle' for SOME of my daily events, what makes you think that you have the right to start making assumptions and make fun of me? *Yea, I agree that I do dislike people who start passing rumores and start making fun of people with their so called harmless remarks/jokes. But hey! In a way or another, at least I know that I am still standing strong on my conviction! Alright, I am going to toloerate all these nonsense and will try not make mention much! Blahs!*Back to life! I am starting to mug. 10%? Yeap, one hour a day of study. I will pull up my socks and work hard for it! Working towards is goals certainly comes with a heavy price. =) Aniway, off I go to East Coast Park tomorrow for a time of sea sand and fun! Hahs
-my kind of life-
Thursday, September 15, 2005
It takes years to master a good language. And within weeks, the skills that have been practised over the years, the foundations have all been destroyed the moment I went to JJC! Lols. No, I am not being prejudice or anything. But that somehow just seem to be the fact! It is no longer easy for me to continue speaking in proper languages with my friends over there! And I seem to be stutter on every single word that I speak. I just thought that maybe the problem might lie with my braces. But then again, the blame should not lie entirely on it!Whahah! I am getting evil! Lols. Nahs. I am just getting a little hyped up over the activities that are in my life and not to forget, the increasing tension of the promotional examinations in about 12 days? =)*Discipline is...*
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Life can never be explained with words. Pictures can only finish about 50% its meaning while the remaining 50% needs to be described with the colours we show in our life, and most importantly, our thoughts and feelings.It will be a waste of time for you to read this entry if you are expecting to what I have been doing in my life. A blog lies more than my 'timetable'. It reveals my inner thoughts that came into my mind some time ago or even just a moment ago! How amazing is that?I am leading a life which I would consider is beyond the realm of the natural. It is for me to type out and for you to find out! Hahs. I had my first lesson of a new phrase fo Bible Study which Felicia, Ray and me have signed up for. The lesson was definitely enriching because I have learnt many principles which I am able to apply in my daily life! And more than that is that I look forward to building a more intimate relationship with my heavenly Father! *Cracking my brain juice for something better..*
-my kind of life-
Monday, September 12, 2005
I was provoked by the things that I see once again. Or rather, I feel that a great burden is landing upon me! No, not a great burden this time round, but many many burdens! Burdens for my dependence on God, my CG members, my ministry, the Chinese Church members, the new friends in my CG and lastly, the people that I have came across in my daily walk with God. It's strange for me to feel burdened for the Chinese Church members, but, the fact that my mother is inside and my encounters with them after their service ends weekly do lead me to a few conclusions which I feel that is confidential. Please do keep me in prayers for everything, especially my sensitive nose. Once again, I have finished my medication. However, after a few days, my nose went sneezing again! It is not as bad as a running nose but..I will just sneeze all of a sudden every moment. And the worse part is that after I sneezed, I will feel itchy inside my nostriles and the nose. I am currently using a spray in the hope that my nose will not be that sensitive to the stuff aorund me, but it seem to only help a little. So guys (and gals), I do really need your prayers! God blesses those who bless His child, so..no worries! When you pray for me, God sees it and will reward you! BUT you definitely do not do that for the sake of getting the reward la! Instead, you should pray for me based on the reason that you care for me! Love needs no reason! So if you care for me, and love me as a friend, pray for me! Actions speak louder than words! Hahs.*Keeping on the track..the narrow one..*
-my kind of life-
Saturday, September 10, 2005
There is only one word to describe Youth Edition: Superb! The whole session opened my eyes! Everything flowed so smoothly with God's presence floating in the midst of the room very strongly! I am definitely feeling great to see God answering my prayers! And this has certainly made me hunger for more of God in my life.Felicia, Ray, Xuan Yu and me went to fellowship to do some shopping for the CG. Oh well, Ray and Xuan Yu went gaming while Felicia and me walked round Parco and Bugis Village till our legs went screaming for a rest!While shopping for the CG, Felicia mentioned to me about how personal my entries are. Hahs. Everything is definitely personal, but do you guys ever wonder why?How would you feel after forking out your precious time to read a blog site which briefs you on the party's daily routine? Imagine reading blog entries w/o any surprises or anything special..Hahs. Yeap, I do not want to tired out my readers by telling them the same things again and again. But rather, I do look forward to sharing my experiences and encounters with the people around me/readers of my blog. But nonetheless, the blog entries are not entirely personal because I do reserve secrets meant to shared with God only! Hahs! But there's at least 80% of my life being revealed publicely! =) So, no worries.*I am excited! Woah!*
-my kind of life-
My life is 'changing' every single moment! It is filled with so much suprises and before I know, something new is once again given to me! Walking with God is definitely worthwhile, because I know that I am not wasting my time away! Hahs!*Leaning on Him..*
-my kind of life-
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Hahs. Sometimes I do wonder if it is true that men can hold their temper better than women. Tell me if it is true.. Well, that is not exactly a sterotype, but I would say that majority of the brothers whom I have come across are really patient. Hahs. Yes, there are indeed lotsa wonderful brothers in church. This never came to my attention till the farewell dinner we held for Zheng Hong on Monday. Thinking about it, no matter how bad things go and how much scoldings he received at times, you will still be able to see him smiling at you and nonetheless deliver his very best performance for the task on hand! And yes, he bought me a book for my birthday. That nearly got my eyeballs popping out! Com'on, when did you ever see Lynn reading book during her free time? At most, I wil read the Bible! Hahs. I was rather excited over getting the book because just a few days ago, I was planning of getting a self improved book for myself using the Attributes voucher that I have got over the past 3 months. Being tempted by the wide variety of CDs Attributes offers, I was in a dilema. Despite having settled my heart on buying a worship CD, I still wasnt feeling very good. Hahs. Thank God that He got someone thoughtful to get me a book that, in my own opinion, is able to meet my need. Alright, I am 17 years old already! It is really time for me to move on and stop complaining over little things that happen daily. And true indeed, there is really a need for Jesus to wien my heart and embrace the stuff that are occuring daily. Most importantly, I have to learn how to accept the people whom I have come across in this ever changing walk of life.I am getting so excited! It seems so blessing for me when my friends are able to make it for Youth Edition this week. Their answers were unexpected. Wosh! =)*Up and on! Up and on in the Lord!*
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
I need to stay on the positive track, grab me hard!
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Thank you.Thanks lot Shannon. =)And next, perhaps it's really time for me to quiet down and observe my surroundings..It is definitely rewarding when you make commitments to God and stay close to Him, but do you ever realise that the devil will get jealous of it? Yes, he wants to prevent you from getting intimate with Him, so let alone receiving God's blessings for us. But thank God that I have Him and yes, He is the reason why I exist today. And not to forget that the LORD is the reason why the devil choose to attack me instead of anyone else. In short, I am in the midst of a fierce spiritual warfare.Just when things are progressing alot for me in my walk with God, in my cell group and my ministry, the devil starts to attack me. And yes, he attacks me at a time when I am having my holidays! Which, in other words means that I will have alot of time to start wasting away by focusing on the trials that the devil has laid for me! You cunning little one! I will be able to overcome this period of tribulation! Eph 3:13 tells me not to not to lose heart at the tribulations God has given to me as they are here for my glory! Yes, like what Zheng Hong has blogged, everything we do goes back to the very basic purpose;for Christ. We do not do it for anyone's sake but rather, because of the love Jesus has for us. Yes, Shannon also told me that nothing that I have done will ever be wasted. God sees it and He will judge it. I will always remember Pastor Kong said: Mature people do things according to their commitments while immature people do things based on their emotions. Seriously speaking, I do encourage you all to read Zheng Hong's blog. Especially on his recent entry dated 6th Sept 2005, if I am not wrong. Just wanna say a big thank you to him for the content and many things do come running back to me with question marks! Duhx. Seriously speaking, ZH is someone whom I feel grateful towards to. Like what many have mentioned, he is someone with extremly good temper. He can crap, he can laugh but he will never blow his top off over anything. Neither will you see him frowning over things that went wrong. He is defintely someone whom I will not take notice at first look but hey! His patience and willingness certainly made him a special one. Thank you for making a difference in my life. =)*Let me see it...*
-my kind of life-
Monday, September 05, 2005
I am in deep thoughts at this moment. And my mind certainly needs to rest. I am trying to break down walls which can never fall...
-my kind of life-
Why do all these happen to me out of so many people on earth? Yes, that's basically the question that has been bothering me unnecessarily recently. I have no choice but to keep convincing myself that God allows that to happen for a reason. Yes! A purpose lies right beneath it! But, I am still finding it very hard to absorb and digest everything, let alone accepting the fact to as why I am faced with such situations!Contradicting thought are bombarding me even at this moment and I seem to be so lost again.. I need to look for Him now.. Hopefully I will come back with a word to share.*When will time ever stop for me?*
-my kind of life-
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Instead of me entertaining you with my stories, I have decided to use a new method; through photos! Hahs. Lols. The photos are just an update on how my life has been recently. Duhs.
They are all my sweet classmates! And well, 3 teachers too. =)
Oh cant you see that I am playing BALLOONS with XIn yu? Woah! hahs!
TaDa! Can you see how strong I am after being able to split the big green and well, red watermelon into two parts? Hahs. Pss..Dont ya think Jessica's chopping board is a little pathetic compared to..Hmm..hahs! Jk jk. =)
-my kind of life-
Isnt this life?Hahs. Life seems to be a mystery to me. For many times, I thought that I had known my life well enough. So much so that I assumed that everything in life is just the way I expect it. But no! Living on this world will never be a routine, neither will it be the same as before when you have received Jesus Christ into your life!*changing direction* Hahs! School seems to be a struggle for me. In my own pair of eyes, it seems to me that university life will definitely be much better than that in pre-university years. It may be due to one news article published in The Newpaper last year that brainwashed me. If I am not wrong, the article mentioned something about scrapping off Junior Colleges and having only polytechnics and universities. Am I right? I cant remember much of the article. But one thing that kept lingering in my mind is that the 'A' levels certificate is worth nothing itself. It just serves as a 'VIP' pass to get into the university if we were to mention about 'snatching' for places in the univerisites. From that time onwards, I seem to be stuck with a mindset that it is a waste of time for me to study in a JC since the 'A' levels certificate seems so insignificant when I enter into the working society some years down the road. Furthermore, it was reported in the news some time ago that in the near future, out of every 4 student intake in the local universities, at least 1 of them wil be from poly. Woah! It does give you a glimmer of hope if you are a polytechnic student interested in getting into a university in the near future yea?Yes, I do sound very confident of getting into the university. But, do you ever wonder why? That is simply because I know where I am heading; where my final destination is. Alright, afterall, university life may not seem as easy as it is after I have read about the struggles Rou Xin is going through right now. It seems to me that no matter where I go, there will definitely be things that obstructs my plan and spoils my mood. In short, the devil just loves to get into our way no matter which direction we are heading towards. Reading through Rou Xin's blog's entry, a question struck me: "Will I end up regretting university life just as the way I feel right now after I get into a local university?"For many times, university life seems to be a holiday for me. Everyone seem to be going through everything just so easily. But, you(including myself) will never understand the stuggles of the undergraduates' lives till you have experienced it.Hahs. There is a need for me to focus on my life in JC at this moment. I need to love my life in JJC, if not, life will get more and more miserable for me. Lols. In JJC, I feel like a wandering soul simply because I do not belong to any CCA. Although CCA is no longer a must in JC, I just do not seem comfortable with the thought of me being CCA-less. Hahs. Perhaps, I should get myself an external CCA in order to make me feel more secured in JJC. Lols. The CCA day(every friday) is simply killing me! Lols. *hints* I miss Tanglin Band, and well, a little on the saturday mentoring stuff. Hahs. No matter how bad life seems to be going, I am still able to live my life happily! Hahs. There are times when I just cannot stop smiling at myself. Oh no, not myself, but to the LORD! It may seem to others that I am behaving like a lunatic, but not to God! I know Him, He loves it whenever He sees His children smiling at Him without any worries. For many times, He has taken away my worries and burdens. Solutions can come flowing to me without any reason and problems can just be solved by itself all of a sudden. Yes, you may not believe it but, it does occur in my life. Let's take for example.. Ideas on decorating/making something. Based on my narrow insight on life, it is almost impossible for me to come up with multiple great ideas on making cards, decorating my room and etc. But for many times, the ideas just come to me, one by one without any hurry, so that I can remember them.Even till now, my mind is bloated with ideas. Yes! There are just so many things that I want to do in my life but I am somewhat limited. I have a dream for my future. And through that dream, a vision has birthed forth! I know what I want for my future, but does God approve it? If no, there must surely be a much better plan that is able to let me shine as a light much brighter in this world of darkness! Hahs!Back to CGM today.. I must really admit that I am not putting in enough effort to read through CG sermons. Despite the definition of blessed being mentioned to us TWICE, I am still not able to remember it. And today is the third time blessed was defined. The excited me kept thinking that being blessed = blessing others, which is = speaking good of others. Hey! That's part of its definition according to what I have learnt in Christian Lifestyle almost a year ago. However, in exact, being BLESSED (not blessing others) simply refers to us being empowered to succeed.Yes, I want to excel and leave a legacy in my short 1.5 years in JJC. But the question is...how? How can I do it when I have left my CCA for the sake of serving God more in the CG, and when I am slacking and not performing well in my studies? After a long consideration, achieving As for my subjects is definitely not going to help much though it will contribute in a little part of the future legacy that I have been eyeing for. As for this, I do really need to ask God for guidance. When I have gotten the answer, I will definitely remember to share it with you. As to the question of when, it depends. After all, the bible states that everything has got its own time and season. So, we shall wait and see which part of my life will God plan for me to share this with you. Hahs.As I was chatting with Kynneth, a question bypassed my mind: "What is your purpose of setting up a blog account?" As what I have answered to him, I am very clear of my purpose in setting up this blog. It is not easy for me to open up my lives to you, be it whether we know each other. It takes lots of time for me to think and plan for each entry as I want to present every entry in its best form, hoping that it will somehow change/impact someone's life. And next, it requires courage for me to type it out. Blogging is as good as exposing the bad side of my life to you! Yes, it is tough for me to blog about the bad stuff that I have done and the sins that I have commited in the past. But, I did type and publish it out for you readers to see. I certainly hope that you have learnt something from my mistakes. On top of that, I want to let you people to know how much God matters to me since He has first given His one and only Son in exchange for my sinful life.It is written in 1 John 4:19 "We love Him because He first loved us,"For this reason, I am willing to lay down my life for Him. And for this reason, I seek for more of Him in my life!*lotsa different and exciting activities are revolving round my life!*
-my kind of life-
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Hey peeps! I am very much alive at this moment! Oh yes, I have not disappear form any of my acts yea? And I am definitely not going to let my birthday disappointments trample over me! Alright, I am simply referring to YOU! YOU the stupid idiotic nothing-better-to-do devil! Hahs!Alright, it is rather evident that I am getting a little loose up there. Lols. But who cares? Hahs. Let's talk about some serious business right now... After attending yesterday's class gathering, I kinda felt so much encouraged. As in, 31 out of 40 people put in the effort to turn up for the party and had little chats here and there. Let's not forget about the sweet efforts of Mrs. Koh, Ms. Chai and Mr. Chan too! Despite holding the party so suddenly and spreading the messages at such late hours, the response were overwhelming! Yes, I am touched by the little acts of theirs! And I definitely am excited to organise chalet trips for them! Hahs. But we are facing one major problem at this moment. And the question is, Will the polytechnic students be having their holidays in the months of Nov. And Dec.?' Hahs.Seeing Mel yesterday, I cant help it but to get my heart so stirred up for her. For those who are in her cell group, you should know the problems that she is facing now. Yes, strong persecution? In my point of view, it is strong. As someone who has known(though not very well) her mother since Sec. 1, I do find it extremely weird in sudden her change of behaviour towards Melissa attending church events and services. After thorough thinking, I somewhat reached to some conclusions, but shall not blog about that since it seems rather confidential. As a friend, yes, I mean, as a sister-in-Christ, I very much would like to stay by her side and really guide her in the spiritual warfare that is going on in her life. But for many times, I seem to be at a lost of words. All I could do is to see her tearing eyes getting redder and redder. I am so sorry Melissa, that I am not able to stay by your side 24/7. For many times instead, I seem so prompted to share the testimonies of how other people, whom I know, have gained victory over their spiritual warfare. Being someone who is not very sensitive, I worried over the issue of whether those testimonies will pull up her spirit. Oh yes! For many times, whenever I want to encourage the people beside me, this seems to occur. I will be at a loss of words for a very long time. And instead of speaking forth a verse from the bible, I ended up sharing breakthrough testimonies of my life and also, the brothers- and sisters-in-Christ whom I know. Perhaps, that just shows how different God can work in my life! Hahs. It sure is interesting to experience how God manifests in our lives!Late last night(or early this morning if you prefer it), I received a rhema word while reading the bible. Yes, I prayed for it during my quiet time okie? So do not be jealous! Blahs! Apparently, the word does not seem to be much linked to the situations that I am facing BUT, it seems to me that God has placed that word in my life to edify the people around me. The verse struck me hard when I read it. Yes, after reading it, I went back to the beginning of the verse to read it through again and again. At that point of time, I kept wondering why? Why the 3 verses? After some time, it came to me that the word is for my beloved Melissa. Yes, it's for her. I sent a sms to her and do really hope that it helps her. And the word came to me as a spiritual weapon against the devil for Rou Xin when I read her blog this morning. Once again, I will never know who much the word has encouraged them. But one thing is for sure, that God is watching over them.This is the rhema word that I received:(!!! <-- I need to add that because I am getting just so excited over it!)Psalm 91:14-16
"Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him, and show him My salvation."*Feeling so loved*
-my kind of life-
