Sunday, October 31, 2004
todae, well, is e last dae of oct. currently i'm feelin rather tired, slpy. despite feelin like ta, i'm determined to finish my revision for tmr's chi paper. =D juz rushed back to church. hahaha..i walked real fast coz e clouds were turning dark!! lolx..but till now, e not a single drip of rain has dropped down.lolx..hehe..
todae's svc was simply awesome. i felt ta my worries were all gone when i began to praise God with all my might. my burdens were all lifted up into His loving hands as i surrendered myself to Him i worship. otking abt worship, todae's sermon is on worship. worship aint as easy as wat it seem to be. it requires sacrifice, and humility. at the same time, u gotta be focus while worshipping God. there are mani times when all these true worship to God seem to be a mission impossible for mi. but i realised ta when e Holy Spirit fills ur body, everything's juz simply great. e presence of God is simply wat i desire for. e feelin juz cant be describe wif words.
lata on, my sis's frenz are all coming over to my hse and stay overnite.lolx..they'll be celebrating her b'dae. lolx..btw, mel yeo's b'dae falls on e same date s my sis..heheh..yrs ago, i remembered the craze for hello kitty, not to forget ta i'm one of the die hard fans.hahah..but, tis somehow isnt true animore.haha..ell welll..hello kitty's birthdae is also on 1 nov!!wah! she shld be..31 yrs old tis yr?(if i didnt remember wrongly) hahaah..nvm..tink i shld take a shower n hav my dinner b4 i start mugging.lolx..hehe..
-my kind of life-
Saturday, October 30, 2004
juz now i was browsing thru e blogs of pp whom i do not know. it was a real coincidence when i across a blog which belongs to a christian. yes, i read one of her blog entries and found ta somehow, my situation can be related to her. yes, i agreed wif wat she has typed. God wants us to grow, grow with His mercy n in His grace, not wif our own flesh. but how? God juz do it miraculously. we do not know y, but whenever we live under the open heaven, supernatural stuff will happen. and i realise one thing, for everythin to work, it requires faith, and trust. we gotta trust God to deliver us out of our miseries and troubles, if not, we'll juz get deeper into the situation. i remembered sis shannon saying ta wateva we think of, ta particular thin wil grow stronger, likewise too. now, i felt ta i'm living in a world of fear. i do not wish to say much, but it juz feel terrible.
okie, regardin open heaven, i've learnt ta in todae's cg sermon. it was impactful. tis is not juz a sermon which we can apply at particular moments in our lives, but in everi single moment of our lives.
arg..cant stand it animore..dun wanna type animore..
-my kind of life-
Friday, October 29, 2004
lolx, todae i reached sch at the usual time , ard seven in e morning? hehe..otk to rui en again. hahah..well, a chit chat session i must say. lolx..hehe..but after ta, i headed to my clsrm where i was afterwards asked to vacant coz of e sec 2 Express. well, they're resitting for e math. paper!!isnt tis ridiculous? oh well, dun mind if i were to say ta, but, if u didnt prepare sufficiently for a paper, u for sure will hav a v low possibility of scoring well. and i do mean well. there shldnt be complains from students or parents. wat if international exams turn out to be diff? will u write a letter all e way to e headquarters, eg Canbrigde uni, juz to 'comment' on e level of difficulty? no!! ta's nonsense. in life, there're things ta r easy n diff. these r times when we r faced wif diff situations to handle. but, if we are well prepared, i do not see why we shld be afraid! oh well, afterall, i'm not exactly in e rite position to comment much. oh well oh well..lolx...hmm..todae i spent my late afternoon mugging in MOS..lolx..after which, i went window shopping. i ended up at e food sectionS where i explored the food stuff n also, well..was tempted to but lotsa them. but, e food was rather..hmm..well, fattening. but one fine day i will try it.hahaha..
back at home, i tot ta there will be dinner but i was wrong!! i forgotten ta todae was fri!! which means ta my maid will not be cooking!!lolx..oh well..ended up eating a sandwich.hehe..aniway, i wasnt ta hungry, i juz ate for e sake of eating.hahaha..hmm..lol...tink i shall stop all my..well..wateva u name it..haha..
-my kind of life-
Thursday, October 28, 2004
oh crapz!! yes, it's fever time!! come to tink abt it, i've got no idea why i;'m down wif an irritating fever!! wat a 'nice' time. oh crapz.. didnt exactly realised it till i took my temp juz now..lol..wasnt feelin v v v well todae..for e past few daes, i had e urge to slp whenever i had my tuition. isnt tis a lil terrible?haiz..took a nap tis afternoon, and i was awaken by a nitemare. a guilt driven nitemare. yes, seem like i realli got to clear e distractions in my life asap.
yes, tmr i'll headin to sch. i need to look for ms wong. well, though i onli got to know her tis yr, i felt ta she's a fanstatic teacher. trust mi. she's a teacher who's easy to get along. well, ta's my point of view. hehe..let's see, time realli flies, approx 4 yrs hav past le. where will i end up next yR? will it be a mystery to others? or wat is it? i've not decided which jc to head towards yet. i'm in a dilemma!!hahah..lolx..well, i shall see ho first ba. hehe..gotta rest le. nitez. =D
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
okie, hey guys i know ta i'm being lame. but, i've got no one to listen to my crap for the past few days!! i juz felt so bored!! todae i had my phy prac, oh well, dun tok abt it animore. it's over, n e mistake ta i've made will not be forgotten. tis is a terrible mistake, i must remember it deep down my heart so ta i will not commit it again. my carelessness, my slowness in doing the paper was the factors for failing a subject!! oh well..let's juz leave ta aside. hmpf!!
for e past few days, mani tots filled my mind. there're mani things which i gotta solve, but i refuses to.yeap.. these r all nonsense. i'm running away from reality!! yes i am!!
-my kind of life-
Sunday, October 24, 2004
lalala..lululu..hahaha..yoz!!lolx..hmm..okie..y not ya juz click on e pic and read my description? hehee.. isnt ta much more convenient? heheh
-my kind of life-
Saturday, October 23, 2004
gosh! i've ate lotsa food for dinner..yes..i ate my dinner at ten plus? or ten? i'm not v sure..hahah..hmm..had indian rojak..strawbeeri prata( it doesnt taste realli v gd lehz..hmpf)..fish & chips..and yes..i drank dinosaur...hahha..fattening!! those are sinful food!!lolz..seem like i'm going to pray hard ta i'll be able to get out of my bed tmr morning for a jog..hahaha..
todae we had combined cgm..at my hse!!hahaha..hmm..lalala..e msg was indeed powerful, as wat my guardian, joyce, had told mi before she left my hse..hahah..thks lot joyce!!! it had been a real long time since i got myself so engrossed wif the sermon..realli..e content was simply..marvellous, i must say. it's regarding e testing of our faith in e walk wif God... as michelle preached, mani tots filled my mind..hav i been faithful to God? all these while, do i lift my everythin up to Him? do i trust Him? yes? no? though these r all simple questions, i found myself having difficulty answering them. y? in my heart, perhaps e answer is a negative one, and ta i juz dun wan to admit to it!! tis is simply terrible..faith --> patience / perserverance --> hope. yes..i know abt it.. i wan to mature. i wan to experience a breakthru right now!! juz now, i was reading rou xin's blog, and i felt so encouraged by her entries. as i read thur, i recalled wat michelle had prayed for me during cgm. yes, i got to rely on God for everything. i cant juz do things on my own. basicalli coz there's a limit to wat i can handle and achieve. but there's one question in my mind: how do i depend on Him? after being a faithful child of God for 1.5 yrs, i hav yet to know the answer. juz felt real disappointed wif myself. i do not know wat i hav been doing all these while. now in my life, it is a total mess. the devilish temptations kept crashing into my direction. and yes, i remembered ta it is written in the holy Bible ta wateva temptations/tests ta we r going thru now, r wat we can overcome. if not, God would not hav allowed it to happen on our precious lives. yes, i juz hav to take a step of faith n be obedient to God. i realli wan it..but on e other hand, i'm afraid of hurting e pp ard mi. i juz felt so lost..hmm..okie..think ta i shld slp le..coz..it aint earli animore!! furthermore, i hav yet to wash up n do my quiet time!! gosh!!wait for mi!! i'm going to do it now!!hahahh
-my kind of life-
Thursday, October 21, 2004
lolx..havnt been posting ani entry for e past few daes ya? in fact, i tink it was onli..two daes?haha..or one daE?lolz..hehe..todae i had my chem prac..had a tough time waking up!lolx..was real tired..wosh!! but i was earli in sch!!trust mi, i was!!hahah..hmm..e chem prac was terrible!! everythin was in a mess!! lolx..arg!! hmm..dun know wat ta say, but i'm losing confident in ta particular stupid lil paper..one, i had no time to finish. two, i recorded e wrong observations, three, i scribbled rubbish on e paper!! oh my gosh!!i cant believe ta i did all those!! oh my!! haiz..gonna real keep myself close to God in prayers..i realli need His help!! pls... hmm.. arg..hmm..let's see..i starved myself todae in e ava rm!! nonsense la! coz we were quarantined till 1+..haiz..meanwhile in e ava rm, e four sisters gathered togather for a chat!! lolx..initialli we were playing with chi words..nahz..we were juz snatching e chances to fill up the blanks in mel's chi guidebook. hehe..then..we went to do our own stuff..haha..all of a sudden, for no reason, we started toking abt the schedule for bookin e chalet trip for all ex 2D schmates!!wooh!! seriously speaking, i had a hard time choosin a date!!ahaha..hmmm...then there we started abt our adventures during e 4daes3nitez stay!! hahaha...e memories were so sweet n..well..great!!hahah..e fighting momentS, e cooking moments..e water activities..and..e preparation for everythin!!hahaha..it was simply great!!arg..gotta continue stickin myself to the tv to kill time!!hehe...
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
crapz..i'm left alone at home!! all alone..my bro had brought my maid out for a show..tis is terrible!!! not long after they left e hse, it started to rain like nobodi's business!! i cant stand it!! i had to keep allllllllll e laundry at home..e worst part was to take in the clothes filled bamboo poles outsie e window..at ta moment, i was tinking if i will die..die in e sense ta i'll land up in police station..coz..i've nv take ta b4..so..i was rather afraid ta i might drop it!!lolx...but thk God, i managed to take all four in..real heavy k? i nearly dropped when i took the last two in..but heeh..i held the other end of the pole against the wall..lolx..no idea wat i'm tokin abt? it's alrite, as long as i understand can le..hahaha..lolx..i'm hungry!!no food at home? die..lolx..haha..jk onli..i juz ate my breakfast not too long ago..hehe..lalal.hahah..
-my kind of life-
Monday, October 18, 2004
yes, as e title has suggested, i have had a supr boring dae todae. i tried studying, but to no avail. i spent almost the rest of my dae eating, and eating, and yes, non-stop. terrible ya? at tis rate, i'm not sure when i will be able to lose e extra pounds i got a few months ago..haiz..wanted to catch a movie todae, but e timing aint pleasin to mi, so i dropped e idea of watching it. i juz feel so hopeless inside mi. i juz cancalled my tuition tis evening coz i am not in the mood to hav it..yes, till now..i'm still not geared up for revision or ani stupid stuff. juz feelin real lost..wif all e stuff bothering mi..arg..stupid matters..juz wan ta let it go...but i'm not ta brave to do it. juz feel real lost in e world of..confusion? i do not know..i wan to solve it..but i'm afraid ta history might occur again. crapz..crapz..crapz..tis is simply idiotic..i cant stand this..there's alimit to my patience..so how? wat am i going to do to stop al these fom crashing into my brain? this is nonsense..
-my kind of life-
Saturday, October 16, 2004
lolx..tis is e ipod picture which shows ta i've won e solitair game..lolx..i've got no idea why e pic juz disappearred in e previous blog entry...for those whu do not hav ani idea to wat i'm crappi abt..read my previous entries!!lalal..hahhah
-my kind of life-
Friday, October 15, 2004
weeH!!hehe..i'm back home..from cgm..lolx..well, of course i reached home earlier than the present time!!todae's meeting was simply marvellous. though our cg is quite small, i believe ta by faith, we'll be able to multiply again!! and tis time, it will take a shorter time than b4!! yeah!!
"With God, all things are possible." Matt 19:26
though todae's msg wasnt veri long, i still found it real powerful. short, simple, n powerful. isnt ta great? =D i've learnt abt increasing my faith in e Lord. e initial faith in us is our desire. if we wan to know more n grow in e Lord, we shld believe in Him, obey His word. Well, e Bible did not say that it is easy to be a christian, but i still became a christain. coz God had died on e cross for our sins. hey guys, dun u feel guilty at all? esp those whu hav been sinning against e Lord endlessly. i do not feel ashame to be a christain, yes i do not feel it. in fact, i shld be glad ta i've got an heavenly Father who is by my side every single moment in every situation, guiding mi always.
i've juz changed my msn nick. it says: e proof of ur desire is in ur pursuit. wat does this actualli tells us? yes, i desire for God's presence. i desire for more of His word. yes, i desire to serve Him. i desire to excel in my studies wif 6 distinctions in my coming 'o' levels. yes, i desire to go to a good jc n make a diff in the students' lives. i know ta i can do it. God has told mi. Yes, shannon prayed for mi. i can do it. wif faith, i can cross e valleys, e raging rivers as though it's nothin to mi. because i know that God is leading mi. He is in front of mi protecting mi, guiding mi. showing mi e light so ta i'll be e light of the world n salt of e earth. yes, i'm gonna shine my light like nv b4. so guys, juz a lil warning to ya, tighten ya seatbeat n get ready for my full blast action!! =D lol..hehe..i realli cant settle down my all e blessings t r coming forth my way..i cant wait for it!! i'm waiting anxiously for it!! yes, i desire to be a cgl b4 18 yrs old. i'm prepared for it. i know e trials n tribulations ta will come into my way, but i will not give up. i've started e race, and i will end it beautifulli. trust mi, i'll. =D hey guys, tink i've written quite a fair bit alreadi, so..i shld stop le.juz in case u read till u drop ya head on the table. haahah..lolxx
-my kind of life-
hey hey!! i'm alive!! lolx..know ta i'm crappin..but..i know ta u guys wldnt mind it!! hahah..lolx..hmm..i've lost my voice..stupid..it all started ytd's evening when i woke up from my nap. i woke up, and yes, i juz lose my voice. i've got no idea wat went wrong!! so..from the whole dae..till todae, i tried my best to kepe my mouth shut. trust mi, it is a terrible experience..so, from this i've learnt a few things..
1) our voice is veri impt to us
2)we shld treasure our voice as much as we can
3) in conclusion, i shall tok more in future to ensure ta my voice is fulli utilise!!lolx..i sound as if i'm..lolx..nvm, in short, i will tok more!! eheh..hahah..so now i've known the imptance of it!!lalala..
p.s. guys, i know ta u're all sad ta i'll open my mouth more often than b4, but, dont u think it will be good for mi to cheer u all up wif my voice when u're feelin low, lost n blah blah..hahaha!! lol
todae, i tried studying..ended up..resting..using e com..and also..reading mag..lol..terrible..i need someone to push mi!! hey hey..i'm learning to be independent..ta's y i'm not invlove in ani studi group/s todae!! yes, for todae onli. in e future dayS..it shall all depend on my desire to hav it, and not to forget, my mood. =D lalaal..hehe...okie, i shall go n read sum stuff n get readi for cgm tonite!!hahhaha..lolx.
-my kind of life-
Thursday, October 14, 2004
lolx.ytd.i did not submit ani entry..aniway, i did not attend sch ytd. wasnt feelin real well ya? but i managed to crawl out of my comfortable bed n went out for studi grp. rather crappi..lotsa stuff happened thruout e dae..hehe..
todae, well, i went to sch. coz, mrs koh reminded mi again n again to attend sch todae. took back my report bk todae..arg!!! juz one mark... 0.1% and i'll be in the top 10% cohort in e sch. arg!! my $300!! dont u tink u can do lotsa stuff wif $300? lolx..hehe..now..i'm realli prayin ta a miracle to happen..lolx..hehe.. first time, i was kicked out of the top 10% category..lolx..real disappointing..cant stand it!! oh my oh my!! u're simply...lolx..haiz..i've got no idea wat to say. haiz..nvm..dun know wat to say le.lolx...
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
lolx..okie, u cant expect mi to write the whole blog entry as excited as e title.hehe..coz, i'm currently feelin quite weak now. weak in my flesh. dun feel real good, i must say. my tummi..still aches.hehe..but, no matter howweak i'm , i must still thk God for giving mi e strength to revise n momerise my chi words for my chi tuition todae, and also, the energy for mi to attend the crash course at suntec in the nitez. though todae i left sch earli hoping for a rest at home, i ended up wif a hectic schedule which i've lost touch of.hehe..lolx. todae, i've been rushing fm places to places. tis kinda feelin reminds mi of the past...e busy n tiring but enjoyable life i led a few mths back..hehe...lolx..todae, i took a nap while revising my chi work..somehow, i thought ta i dreamt. but, it doesnt seem to be. i'm not sure..somehow, e tot of rain came into my mind as i woke up from my nap. it seems to be reminding mi to bring an umbrella b4 i leave e hse. however, e forgetful mi left the hse in a hurry and did not bring ani umbrella out. aniway, i'm rather reluctant to take one along wif mi, coz i do not know how to use it..e last time i used it, somethin bad happened..lolz..and u know somethin, once i reached bukit gombak, it started to rain. at ta moment, i regretted not bringing an umbrella!! oh my gosh..then, felicia's testimony came into my mind.she prayed to God on a rainy dae, hoping ta e rain wil stop. and yes, i did the same too. thk God!! as soon as i leave the shelter available, it stopped raining!! Hallelujah!! hehe..may praise n glory be onto e Lord!! hehe.. todae's tuition was rather long. so long ta... i left my tutor's hse 40 mins later..lolz..yes, i rushed down to city hall n meet mel. no matter how fast we tried to walk to tower 3, we still didnt make it on time. but, better late than nv wat!! lolx..hehe..and, e whole lesson ended at ard 950pm..gosh!!i was worn out n hungry..poor mi..lucky my mum met up wif mi. coz she dun feel safe wif mi going home alone, esp when i' m sick!!hmmm..such a doting mummi i've got!!hehe..on e way to e train station , i sort of quarrelled wif her, coz..i was hungry..and she was tired..i couldnt find ani food ta i felt like eatin in suntec..so i cmplained to my mum..she brought mi to somewhere near city hall...later..she suggested to mi..bugis.. i said no..then she said chinatown..but..both of us r realli veri veri tired le..so..we dropped the idea of going over to there..i ended up buying e pizza bar in 7-11..lol..after ta..we rushed home..on e train..a young lil boi..he's a malay i tink..his eyes r juz so bright..his eye lashes!! oh gosh!! they're real beautiful..long and curled up..lolz..ladies, u shld be jealous of it!!oh my!!they're simply great!!hehe..he's real active..jumping up and dancing in the train..yes..literalli he did ta..hehe..it's amazing to see a young lil child so active n happi..i realli like it. i simply like kids..i do not know why..but juz feel so blessed whenever i see children..my desire to hav my own children grew even stronger these few weeks..it juz occurred..and i'm prepared..hmm..i mean when i'm old enough la!!hehe..later on, we alighted at redhill, instead of boon lay..coz my dad's fetching us.hmm..after his game of badminton..hahaha..my mum decided to go to redhill hawker; beside the train station, to buy some food..as i walk pass e tables..i got a shock! there was tis lady who looked real scary..her eyeballs were focusing upwards..which i had no idea wat she's lookin at..and she was shaking all over the place with her left hand rubbing against sumthin placed on her laps..i nearly cried as i walked past her..she was dressed in black..she looked..no diff form a witch!! e worst thin was ta i onli realise all these when i was one step away from her. i wanted to take a step back , but ofund ta it wld be rude ot do ta..wat if..she's offended n she comes n harm mi? so, i took a big step and walked away fm her asap..lolxz..hehe..when i was abt to go n queue up and buy desserts..my mum rang my dad.and my dad told her not to buy anithin..lol..so we went away and waited for him at a nearby bus stop..lolx..my dad heard ta i was hungry (when actualli i had filled my stomach), he asked if my mum was hungry too..since my mum hasnt had her dinner, my dad brought us to tanglin halt hawker..lolx..i had dou hua over there"!! yumyum..i like it!! hehe..lalala..hehe..and here i am..home..okie la..tink it's realli time for mi to rest..i'm not feelin ta well after all..nitez nitez..rest earli hor..hehe..lolx..ta's lame..
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
lolx..u see!! i'm gonna prove to u ta i've completed e game!!hahaha..lolx..hheeh..see..we hav a winner!!yeah!!hehe..lolx
-my kind of life-
i went to sch todae, but i came home during recess. isnt this interesting? hehe..lol..my tummi..stupid..lol..later still gotta go for chi tuition, and juz b4 i left e class, mel y. reminded mi of tonite's crash course. arg..gotta go. coz i missed last week's lesson. i gave it a miss coz, i was feelin rather down. not exactly in e mood for studying. do not know y, but, it's juz like ta. hehe.. took a cab home and as usual, i confused the driver wif my left rite directions. hey!! i didnt mean to give e wrong directions ok? it's juz ta..hmm..okie..i'm juz gonna admit ta i myself am not sure where's left n rite..lolx..BUT, at least i can differiate RIGHT n WRONG!! lol..hehe..okie..i hav 3 hrs to finish revising 4a ttbk chi words..coz, later on i've got a chi test.lol..sounds interestnig to mi, coz i've nt taken ani b4..hehe..wonderful!!hahaha..hmm..and also, tonite..going to suntec straight after my chi tuition. though it's rush, i dun mind it coz i'm used to it le..hehe.. life is juz so hectic for mi. for some days, i'll be busy like a mad dog. but other days, i'll be left aside like a junk. no one wants it..lolx..but nvm, Jesus wants it. i know it.hehe..i'm juz so bored at times when i'm alone.hehe..nvm..think i shld stop blogging le. in fact, i shld start my revision. hmm..btw, juz now i finalli manage to win solitair!! hmm..e deck starts wif cards in sets of three k? not one! so i shld b pround ta i managed to complete the game after...after..countless tries..hehe..and also, i want t0 thk e.t. n starfish for giving mi chi spellin juz now..thks lot for helping mi...and also, monkey!! thks lot for playing wif mi..and also tolerating my nonsense!!lol..and not to forget..my..qi er..hehe..oops, i mean qi er. thks for listening to my reasons for learning chi words during eng juz now!!hehe..and also..leong n mel y. lalaal..u two shld know wat u've done to mi!! u all abandoned mi!! lolx..joking la..hehe..hahah okie..go liao go liao..hehe..ahhaa..lalal
-my kind of life-
Monday, October 11, 2004
NOw, there is tis lil gal sitting wif a big n bloated tummi writing an entry for her blog. She is none other than lynn choo. crapz..realli crap. tis afternoon, i went to catch a movie wif zh at jp. i was simply dryinn up at home. i was feelin lonely, sad, depress and wateva u can add in. lol. e movie was meant to relieve my stress. i've decided: ta i will spend tis whole week resting. yes, i did not type wrongly, and you did not read wrongly. i'll start mugging next week. serious. i've tot abt it, and felt ta a gd rest is wat i need. hehe..as for how i'll mug, it all depends. crapz!!! tmr i'm having chi tuition. believe it or not, i'll be having chi tuition w 2 diff tutors at 2 diff places..oh my!! arg..tmr got chi test..chi compo to hand up..gonna mug tonite. trust mi, i wont disappoint u..shh..i'm gonna pushhhhhhhhh myself!! hehe..it wld be better if there's someone to push mi. i'm wondering if..there'll be anione whu can actualli reward mi..w chocolates!! ehe..wait!! WEI CHONG!! u still owe mi my kinder surprise..not to forget GERVAIS too!! u!! u two r cheater bugs!!always lie to young lil innocent girls like mi!! lolx..hehe..okie..enough of my remarks..hehe..
tonite, i prepared dinner for the whole family. i must admit ta tis is my first time doing it. well, i'm actualli learning to be independent. however, things did not turn out well. everythin started well..onli till e frying part, i started for help. and i do mean, shouting out loudly. i was callin for my maid, dude!! she ran out from her room looking bewildered at e outwardly burnt and yet uncooked chicken on the frying pan. hmm..i dun wish to continue further w e cooking part. it was simply terrible. all thks to mi, e whole kitchen was in a mess. hehe..e final productS were worst. they tasted..hmm..horrible..i must say..my aunt was complaining..and also..e complain queen; SARAH CHOO.lol..hehe..but nvm..i'm open..i realli appreciate their feedbacks..there's much more for mi to learn.hehe..well.in e past, my baking simply CMI (cannot make it). till now,i stil cant bake well.juz felt ta i'm not a born to be a cook, but rather, a consumer.hehe..i like to eat, but it depends on wat kinda food.i like veg, but not meat..i onli like to eat fish. hehe..i hardly eat meat, ta's y i've got low iron level in my body..sometimes, i do feel weak.hehe..nvm, now i feel as though i'm an air pollutant w all e cooking smell sticking on my bodi, my clothes, my hair..arg.. know it, i'm going to bath now..hahaha..lol..well..lalalala..nitez nitez la..lolx..hehe
-my kind of life-
okie..todae i didnt turn up for sch..i was feelin uneasy last nite. so much so ta i somehow cried myself to slp. my tummi aches alot. gosh..but..i still refuses to see a doctor..coz i dun like them!! 'visiting' them in clinics often waste my time : travellin time, queuing time and not to forget, changing time. i gotta get change b4 i go out wat..lolx
as i read thru pp's blog, be it if they're linked to me, mani tots filled my mind. i began to wonder wat's e purpose of living? wat hav i been doing all these while? tinking back, i've actualli spent my time wisely, and to the fullest limit i can..coz of band commitments and everythin..but ever since i stepped down from band, i discovered myself misusing the excess time i am blessed wif. why? simple, it was due to the lack of discipline. now..as i write..i'm thinking of my 'o's revision...wat hav i been doing? other than slackin all dae long..in my heart, i'm panicking like nv b4..but, i refuses to do anithin to stop the fast beating heartbeat. oh man!!wat's wrong wif mi?? ytd nitez, i read the Bible..i realised ta God is not 'operating' in my life..i felt ta i've drifted away fm Him..yes..away..further n further like nv b4..y? wat's wif it? i questioned myself. all these lies wif mi. my attitude towards Him, my desire for Him, my obedience towards listening n obeying His words. wat hav i been doing all these while? juz felt so guilty deep in my heart..
Lord, i reali need ur strength to guide mi to higher levels. not onli in this period of time, but for the rest of my life. may i pray ta u'll take away all the distactions in my life. i realli wan to hav a close n personal relationship wif u.may i juz pray for ur guidance Lord. i realli need you. thk Lord. Amen.
ytd..i was feelin real down as i began to hav my quiet time. but, nevertheless, i still praise God for everythin. juz like wat Shannon has taught us. yes, it is a sacrifice. no one said ta it wasnt. no one said ta being a christian wld be like living a worry-free life..no one ever said ta it is easy to be a christian!! well..it is written in the bible ta God has plan for us trials n tribulations..but..wait!! they're here for a purpose..God wants to build us up for a better and more powerful future ta's coming in our way!! hold on tight gal!! jia you! i believe ta u'll be able to survive thru' tis period of crisis.. yes, indeed, after praising God, i cried out to Him..there're juz so so so so mani things in my heart. everytime, i'll juz share it wif Him..but tis time, it was diff..e atmosphere was diff..my tears juz flowed down..it juz happened..w/o mi knowing y..juz felt ta my burdens were lifted up..after my quiet time, i juz felt a sense of gladness in my heart. do not know y,but it was juz like ta. =D todae..it's going to be a new dae, i believe. so, aftr writing tis blog, i'm going to settle down n do my stuff..serious..no distraction..
-my kind of life-
Sunday, October 10, 2004
"As the deer pants for the water brooks,
So pants my soul for You, O God.
My soul thirsts for God,
for the living God.
Where shall I come and appear before God?" Psalm 42 : 1 - 2
Yes..i'm thirsty for the presence of God. Lord..i realli need you..now, i'm all lost n confused. whY? recently..my temper has changed for the worst..i've got no idea to why tis occurred..perhaps..stress? or..is it coz i'm tired of the pp ard mi? i do not know why..in my heart..particles of fear are present..y? yes..i'm feeling guilty too..for all e sins ta i've committed..may i juz lift them up and pray for Ur forgivness to land upon them, Lord. and now..i totalli hav no idea to wat i'm doin now..*totalli reluctant to share wif pp*.. toking to pp u know is not equal to toking to pp u totalli trust..e feelin, e atmosphere, the topics and etc.. r all totalli diff..juz felt so lonely..and sad..*in my broken heart*
Hide mi now
under ur wings
cover mi
within ur mighty hands
Chorus-
when e oceans rise
n thunders roar
i will soar with U abv the storms
Father U r King over the flood
i will be still
know U r God
find rest my soul
in Chirst alone
know His power
in quietness n trust
i juz felt so..i juz felt ta i am not myself animore. recently, i experienced mood swings. and yes, i hav been slackin all dae long when all my clsmates r busy mugging for their 'o's. wat exactly is wrong wif mi? there's one thing i realised..and..i wont share it..coz it is real real real personal to me..hey guys, u can forget abt pestering mi for the answer. Trust me, ur effort will be futile.
when i was younger, i remembered myself thinking of positive phrases to brighten up my life. Personalli, these hav played a wonderful role in leading mi to cheerful and worry-free life alomst every single dae. As i began to grow, i discovered myself diverting my attention to mani other matters. So much so ta i didnt hav e chance to quiet down n lead myself into deep thoughts. whenever i tried doing it now, mani unhapi and hurting past me memories will flash back. i felt so hurted n worried ta my mind no longer thinks in peace.
todae, i'm still not feeling veri well. my headache still exist..but..not as bad as last nite. but, my tummy wasnt in a veri good shape. i dun feel good walking abt, but thk God ta i'm still able to serve Him todae. =D intended to leave earli todae..in e end, i left church at 8+ pm. coz my parents was takin their own sweet time to fetch mi and head towards giant..okie..daddy!! i told u le..i didnt mean to spend so much de..mummy n leon bought quite alot of stuff too k? okie..no matter how i hard i try to explain to him.. his mind was set on deducting my one week's allowance..crapz..lucky my mum is still supplyin mi majority of my allowance..heehee..okie..ta's abt it..nuthin much..
nitez.
-my kind of life-
Saturday, October 09, 2004
hehe..todae i woke up at 0730..in e morning la!! coz i gotta go to samsung customer care centre to collect back my phone..hehe..i went there earli to avoid 'human jam' yA?hehe..after e collection of it..i spent hours in IMM..i went to Giant..attempting to get somethin..but in e end..i didnt..coz ..i cldnt find ani ta i wanted to buy..hehe..i spent e rest of the time walking ard IMM..and guess wat? i saw Sharon Aw..e channel 8 artist la..lolx..they're there to host the huo wu da jiao huan programme..i find the programme rather lame..hehe..but..it doesnt affect mi aniway.so..haha..cant be bothered aniway..hehe..it seemed ta i had a long dae in IMM..so much ta i'm too lazy to share..lolx..hehe..when i reached home..i fell onto the bed immediately..hehe..time passes realli veri quickly..i woke up at 0630pm..hehe..slp for close to 5 hrs!! lolx..guess ta i must be real tired..hehe..
yeah!!i prepared my own dinner tonite!!hehe..i cooked pasta..together wif lotsa mushrooms..and..guess wat..i fried a cheese omelette for myself!! hehe..nah de i will cook..but..i did ta for a purpose..coz..i dun wan to hav am maid le..so..now i'm learning to be independent..lolx..not too late ok?hehe..in e nite..i went to jog..wif my bro n sis playin badminton..but..after jogging for abt 1.6km..i stopped..coz..i cant take it animore le..my stamina has realli dropped alot..haiz..after ta..i had a stomach cramp and severe headache..ya..i'm still experiencing ta now..lolx..haiz..real disappointed wif wateva ta has happened!1lolx..i'm going to train back the kinda stamina i hav..trust mi.i'll!!hehe..
woh!okie..tink i shld hav a rest le.. not feelin ta well now..arg..hehe..
-my kind of life-
wah..okie..tis entry was meant for ytd..hehe..hm..last nite we had combine cgm!! it was simply great!! w210 n w300..lol...hmm..ytd...all thks to cal n joyce and my sis for pressing the doorbell..coz..i juz woke up fm a nite mare..i was so ..shocked ta i wasnt able to lift myself up from e bed..oopz..hehe..but thks to their persistent 'noise'..or else i wld not be able to wake up on time for cgm..hehe..lol..
hmm..ytd we had a short PM b4 the start of cgm..though short, it was powerful + meaningful..at the start of cgm...i could realli feel the presence of God as some of us share our testimonies n glorify God..while i was bathing..God reminded mi to share my ss prelim results w the CGs...even though ta testimony occurred quite long ago..i felt ta God was tellin mi to share..n yes i did..hmm...okie..God is indeed powerful..His presence can reali shake the whole earth!! trust mi..go to CHC and attend as service..after ta..u'll know wat i mean..hehe =D my ss results was indeed a miracle..my SE section jumped from a 6/25 marks to whopping 22/25 marks!! praise the Lord!! indeed..He is good..hehe.. during the sharing of the word..it was wonderful..we ended cgm wif praise..new ya?hehe..God didnt say ta we cant end wif praise wat..lolx...hehe.after cgm..e five of us, mi + sarah + felix +ray + felicia, didnt join the rest of the members for fellowship..we had BS instead..hehe..thks Shannon..haha..i realli take my hat off Shannon..she still continue to serve God despite herbad health..but nvm!! i know ta God wil heal u de!! hehe..
okie la..ta's e end of ytd's entry..hehe..
-my kind of life-
Friday, October 08, 2004
wonderful!!i'm now using the com all thks to my maid..was initially slping..okie..slpt for less than 20mins..then i was awaken by the sound of the door bell..it rang continously..didnt even know where my maid went to..left mi all alone at home w/o informing me..great..i cant slp now..arg!! an..BAO YING...i didnt say ta u're a coward ya?unless..u admit yaself? e bunch of cowards i actualli refered to was a group of pp whu..i dun know whu they r..onli my sis SARAH CHOO KAIWEI knows..but too bad..she refuses to tell mi..how abt ta? so how? r u admitting ta u're one of e cowards i'm referring to? lolx..jk la..
okie...my maid's back le..i can SLEEP le..lolx..
-my kind of life-
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
In a far far away land during ancient times, there was a chatty lil gal named lynn..lolx.it's getting interesting ya?hehe.. Tis lil gal went to school on 06oct2004. Back in her classroom, she started her usual habits. She sang and sang endlessly, not to forget about the non-stop chatting. The funni lil creatures sitting beside her was complaining like nv before. for eg, the alien, by the name of yee ting, told lynn to stop singing. However, lynn turned a deaf ears to her words. Soon, pat started to complain...she gave hints to indicate her high noise polluting level.finally..lynn listened to her. but, it was for less than 1 min before lynn was back to her old self..hehe..okie..i shall stop tis nonsensical crappi story...lolx..so tired of wrt#itting it..hehee..
okie.last nitez i got a scolding from my dad..wat for e reason behind it, i do not wish to say. juz felt ta..everything in my life is going wrong now..it juz feel so terrible..in my heart...doubts are surrounding it daily..i am living in a world of uncertainty..juz felt ta tis isnt the usual mi..i've changed..dun know why..my temper..became worst..pp r always toking behind my back..well..my sister knows whu they r..but she refuses to tell mi..cowards!! dare to comment abt mi, yet dun even dare to say it in front of mi!! cowards!! a bunch of cowards!! arg..juz feel so angry rite now..wateva these pp r doing is irritating mi!! i'm unhapi coz no matter how ke lian i begged my sis to tell mi, she refuses to tell mi..i juz felt ta i'm being treat unfairly!! e anger juz kept bottling up in my heart..i juz felt so terrible..so much so ta i couldnt concentrate on doing my stuff..simple stuff like..sitting still..doing my hmwk..let alone reading book/s!! arg!!!!! y? y? y?
after the occurance of so many things..i realised something..e power of God..how it is related.i'll leave it to u and think..i'm not gonna say it..juz got so tired..
perhaps it's realli time for mi to settle down n revise my work..cant delay it animore le..i gotta strike 6 A1s!! i'm gonna prove it to u!! yes.i can do it!!! i can!!!
'Lord, may i juz leave everythin up into ur loving hands as i start to revise for my o levels. i juz pray for the extremely brain power ta u're going to give it to mi, and also e alertness of my mind. thk U for everything. Amen'
lynn signing off at..0507pm ..feeling rather lost..confused..and..down now..
-my kind of life-
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
on tis veri fine day..all of us sat down in an eatary located at far east...all we did to kill time was simply to take photos...lolx..hehe..but nvm..did u see those yummi yummi food on e table? yes..they r fried rice..not too bad la..hehe..dun be jealous k? hehe
-my kind of life-
juz some changes to e last entry...hmm..it was written on 30sep..not 1oct..lolx..
lolx..been in e bad mood..mood swings?i d not know..qurarrelled wif my aunt and mum last nitez over insignificant stuff..crapz..i was feelin so..frustrated last nitez ta i..okie..nvm..juz felt ta..nvm.some pp juz cant do things based on simple common sense..and ta angers mi lots..hmpf.. another thing ta made my blood boils is e fact ta some pp are always gossiping abt others..crapz..it's simply irritating..well..if u were to comment abt one's flaws behind them, wat's e use and saying it? wouldnt it be better for ya to tell it straight in front of them, so ta they will relise their mistakes? well..i do not know whu's toking behind my back but..if i were to find out..i'm gonna scold u upside down..coz no.1, u are rude..no.2, u're irritating..no.3, u're a coward...no.4, u're not perfect either..so..y shld u gossip abt others? unless u wld like others to do ta too..am i rite?
okie..enough of ta..somehow..i've vented my anger in ta para..but, i'm still feeling real angry..but nvm abt it..juz felt ta my world has fell apart..and..i do not know why..it juz feel...real terrible inside my heart..and many times..i think to myself..wat's wrong wif mi? wat's wif e sudden change in mi?but somehow..i cant figure e answer out..i remembered ta school used to be my fav place..coz it's e place where i can find my joy..my frenz..e wonderful frenz who'll stay by my side in times of sadness and happpiness..but now..it's somewhat i place..i hardly look forward to..coz..my relationshipS wif mi frenz..aint as close as b4..there're even some pp whu look at mi as though i'm indebted to them.hey guys!! com'on...wat's wif all these?
in class...i mixed wif diff grps of pp..mainly coz of my sitting arrangement (i must say). days ago..my sister was tellin mi some stuff regarding e way i associate wif pp..and yes..wat's wrong wif ta? sometimes..she'll juz comment abt e wat i deal wif things..e way i behave... ta does ta coz pp told her stuffs abt mi..ya..i appreciate her for all these ta she has done..but..it angers mi when i ask her whu are the ones whu commented those..she simply replied to mi,"i've promised them to tell anione." if u were mi..how wld u feel? i wld seriously like to hear ya comments..
todae..i didnt go to sch..didnt manage to wake up..my mum gave up le..she dun wan ta wake mi up animore..i was simply too tired to move..and..i didnt want to go to sch, coz i did not do my work..lolx..yes..i'm running away from reality..but nvm..todaa i'm spending my day awat by studying..and also..tonitex..i gotta go to CHEC or a.math crash course..permutation and combinations together wif binomial. lolz..hehe..nvm..juz keep looking at the next entry!
-my kind of life-
Friday, October 01, 2004
hey ya! hehe..it's somewhat a miracle to see my posting a new entry ya?heeh..
tis morning when i woke up..it was freezing..lolx..ended up bringin a jacket to sch..and slpt for almost the whole dae..lolz...hehe..dun know y..but my stomach doesnt seem to be feelin well these few days...lolx..cant jump abt for too much/long..haiz..arg!! hahah..
nvm abt tis..lolz..todae i got back my eng paper.. woosh! i passed..lolx..it was quite worryin for mi..esp when i didnt do well for my mid yr..and i do mean didnt do well ya? hmpf..hehe..okie..now..now..i'm praying real hard for a c5 in eng..pls...pls..or else..i can forget abt ac le..lolx..hopefulli..i can get into ta for the first three mths ba..lolx..arg..realli regretted for not studyin for mine phy..wasted!! but nvm..realli..deep in my heart..i realli wanta thk God for realli guiding mi thru my prelims..though i didnt manage to finish my revision...i managed to get a b4.. hehe.realli..it's e work of God i must say..hehe..w/o Him.my chances of failing phy wld be much much more higher..coz i somewhat wrote nonsense on my papers instead of e answers..hehe..once again, praise God for ta!! hehe..
hmm..for e last few days..i've been going to CHEC for e mock exams...it was real tiring coz..i gotta rush back home, change and go out again..didnt manage to rest much either..tis's esp when i reach home at ten plus every single dae..lolz..but...i believe ta my effort to make a trip down for e paper will not be in vain ya?hehe..lalala.. it juz seem ta i've got lotsa stuff to type..but.i dun tink it's possible..coz..somehow..it's getting..a lil longwinded..as wat ms wong has said..hehe..lolX..
okie...nuthin much either le..gotta send my exam timetable to edwin le..hhee..nitez.
lYn² 11.25pm
-my kind of life-
