Friday, November 05, 2004
=D the week is ending soon, well..tinking back, i indeed had a wonderful week though i struggled thur it mentalli n emotionalli. i must say ta there r lotsa things which i hav to give up if i were to seek after my dreams, my desires.. it's tough. it hurts. it's nevertheless difficult to describe how i feel. but the great news is, no matter how down we are, how worn out we are, how broken we feel, God is still by our side. =) there are mani times when we read abt other pp's testimonies, hearing them sharing the wonerful things God has done in their lives, but hav we ever experience it? it's needless to say that experiencing is much much much betta than listening alone. but, how do we experience it? mani times, i hav asked myself. e more i try to seek Him wif my own mind, wif my own ability, e more i cant find Him. i feel ta i'm further away from Him than before. why? i always question myself, even till now. praise to be wif The Lord, after praying n readin the Bible for so mani daes, i finalli got the answer from Him. it is said ta we should not do things wif our own flesh, for it's weak. but His grace is sufficient for all our needs, yes, ALL. when u wholeheartedly lift everythin up into His hands, and trust that He will deliver u out of ur troubles, your heart will feel His peace. for He is a peaceful God, and with Him, we will be calm and think peacefulli. it's juz so strange. everythin seem to be happening in e supernatural realm, but no doubt, God's power is landing on us, on mi!! i juz felt it. though i was feelin lonely in my heart over the week, i continued to giv His the glory ta rightfulli belongs to Him, i continued to praise Him wif all my might despite of my problems. yes, nothin is more impt than Him. w/o Him, my life would hav been in a greater mess which i cant even imagine. He is good. God, U're indeed wonderful. ur word touches my heart n gives mi strength in wateva i do. ur wisdom is greatli desired by mi. yes, i pray ta U'll ocntinue to anoint mi as i humble myself in front of you. tings r juz not e same animore. e world is changing, e society is changing, i m changing, but not God. He is still e same God i've known Him since e dae i met Him. He still loves mi like no one does, He still protects mi like a precious treasure of His. it's simply great to be hidden under His wings. it's beyond words. i love it. God, i realli wan to thk You for guiding mi thru all e papers so far. You continued to anoint mi wif a strong mind, wif a sound mind despite of my temperamental fever. You r good, no one can ever be compared to You. wheneva i'm stuck in ani question/s i in my paper, u'll jzu help mi. miralces r happening everydae, everywhere. it's juz so encouraging. no matter wat happens, i will not be complacent at my success, instead, i'll continue to humble myself to seek Your grace so ta You can bring mi up to a higher level where no one has ever reached. yes, i know ta i can. i will leave everythin to You, and be faithful to You. Amen.
leaving my future in God's hands...
-my kind of life-
