Sunday, December 19, 2004
todae's a sundae. real cool! i met up wif my cg members to do tis yr's xmas gifts together..it was all so wonderful..we had so much fun but shannon isnt feelin v well..she's sick. so guys! do mi n my cg a favour by praying for her! christmas is getting near..and she realli needs the strength to perform to e best she can for e xmas drama! go for it! =)
juz felt so blessed after toking to my ex-cg members..yu zhen...rou xin..heng ling..wosh!! juz missed them.. pp ard mi hav given words of advice..and also to share their views on particular matters..after a long consideration..i decided to drop the idea of appealin into acjc for 1st 3 mths..it's rather complicated..i agree with wat rou xin had said to mi at e soccer court tis afternoon..we shld choose a place where we'll feel comfortable to learn..where there are more opportunities for us to explore ourselves..and most imptly..a place where i will realli feel as though i'm in church..sajc..the christian grp is rather stong over there(as wat i've heard if i'm not wrong). sajc..will ta be a place where lives will b impacted greatly by the love of God? will ta b a place where my dreams n visions will come to past? i do not know..but i believe in God for a great mighty future..rou xin is rite..i shld ask God n pray to Him abt it..as it is written in the Bible: seek HIm first n all will b added onto you.
i do not know..but mani things seem to b changing..not to b denied ta i've changed a lil..and of course, for e better. i've learnt to take things a lil easier. b more responsible in wateva i do. better temper.
juz feelin real tired for e past few daes..didnt manage to slp sufficiently..had abt..5+ hrs per dae onli..and every nite, i reach home totalli tired..juz felt ta my life is v dry..i need to do alot of things..but i cant dig the time out to do it..how shld i plan my schedule?
mon morn to acc mel n ade to jjc..then to work..then perhaps..to catch a show?(wif my frenz..ta depends..)tues..morn to band then to do xmas gifts..work..and to orchard..wed..work..elderly's party..and depends..thurs..work..elderly's party..work?
gosh! i realli got lotsa stuff to do man..arg...hahah..shld i juz giv up e job? i need to..but i'm not willin to..coz i wan to prove to others ta i can make it..oh crapz..so tied down..i wanna serve God..my limited time..and not to forget..my cls gathering..gotta get down to earth n start passin msg to others le..
did ya manage to notice one habit ta i kicked? read carefulli..n compare the words ta i used presentli n in e past..hehe..
todae pst sy roger said somethin real impactful..sometimes we pray to God ta He'll take away the sadness in our hearts..and more la...but God dun take away the feelings ta He gave to us..bcoz the feelings r there for a purpose..n God wants us to understand the reason for their existence..i feel ta onli thru tis will we manage to overcome the emotions..i dun wanna b a emotion driven gal..but a commitment driven gal..everythin i do..let mi do it wif a heart of love n willingness..
quote for todae: a mature person do things according to his/her commitment while an immature person do things according to his/her feelings
-my kind of life-
