had a meaningful dae todae. i spent quality time(in my own pt of view) wif e pp whom i missed n also e pp whom i treasure alot!! one, i met up wif my fellow 4e1 classmates in tss tis morn. had lotsa interestings short coversations n yeap, lotsa photo taking. i realli misses them ALOT!! realli.. i was juz so touched to see them again todae. and yeap, i was juz so glad ta i went ard to hug the gals. tink ta's a realli polite gesture of showing my love to them? e beautiful moments we spent as a class for e past two yrs remain clearly in my mind all e time. i juz miss them. e encouragement the pp gave to mi, e warmth n e laughter too. i cant help it, but to say ta i realli realli misses my sec sch mates ALOT!
sometimes i wonder to myself, "why do we hav to b sepearated always? is it somethin ta's gd or bad? shld i celebrate over it or cry over it?" if i were to tink on e positive side, i wld see tis as an opportunity for my to explore the world, to widen my circle life and of course, to learn new skills n knowledge. however, if i were to dwell on e neg. side, i believe myself blaming everyone for parting us, and yeap, i wld keep on questioning myself a lame qn, i.e. wat can i do to turn back time? or even to stop it?
basicalli, pp do hav to part. but whether frenships will prevail as time passes will b another matter. i read kimberly's nick on msn juz now. it wrote "depth of frenship does nt depend on length of acquaintance". somehow tis gives mi a aftertot ta pp still can remain as close frenz despite decreased period of time spent wif one another.
okie, i juz feel so lonely in my heart. juz a lil unadaptive in sajc..wif the timetable, workload n maybe, e company of some frenz.
as usual, i'm someone whu is afraid of being left alone. i dun like to b alone. i wan someone there to b wif mi all the time. a fren will do, a v close one. i miss the moments i spent wif s5 in sec2.. esp wif xiangying. everythin juz seem to b so wrong betw e both of us. e distance of our frenship juz got further n further every single moment. true indeed, i misses her as much as i miss bao ying(who's in hk now), ade(who i seldom tok to now) and mel(my onli sis-in-christ who's there wif mi no matter wat happen).
no matter how i feel now, i juz feel so much luckier than xinyu's sis whu went to US to study. e absolute loneliness n homesick pro is juz too much for one to handle..esp when her sis is onli one yr older than us. in my heart, xinyu gave mi a whole new impression of her sis as a v strong gal who's able to survive alone out there in a foreign land.
had reunion dinner at my da gu's hse in e evening. tis yr e table is once again crowded. and it was much worse than last yr coz we had a new family member, karen! she's my cousin-in-law. =) though squeezy, i believed ta all of us had enjoyed e dinner. e food was great n e joy of sharing a meal together on e same table juz cant b explained by words alone!!
okie, was 'chased' home by my parents aft e dinner ended. tis yr was totalli diff fm last yr..i reached home rather early. e next few hrs were reserved to spring clean the house. believe it or nt, i somehow cleaned up my room. as usual, i focused on e book shelf only. =) felt rather great ta it's much tidier now(Wif lotsa space for mi to add on more stuff too!!). i also removed the pieces of paper n books on my study table.. hehe..i'm feelin super satisfied wif wat i did to my room.
i love my family n frenz.
quote of the dae: spending quality time wif one another is essential
