i miss all of u!! all my ex tss classmates n schmates. juz felt real great tis week coz i realli realli spent quality time wif my ex-classmates.juz felt the warmth i used to receive from them, e wonderful laughters n jokes of theirs. i'm juz so so so touched by the opportunity God has blessed mi with. tmr's v.dae and i'll b meeting up wif them again for dinner.
went to junwei's hse instead of swimming juz now. when we were abt to leave, i was juz so sad. in my heart, i was tinking when will we get to meet like tis ever again? when will i get the chance to heard their laughters n jokes? when? when? and yeap, e emotional mi juz felt like crying. i dare not cry out coz i was afraid ta i will frighten them. whu knows..my tears started to flow down my cheeks when i boarded 243g home.
i dun wanna deny but i juz feel so left out in jc. there r juz so mani times ta i've been left aside coz my frenz(whom i'm closer with) went off toking to their OG mates. no, i'm nt blaming them for doing ta..perhaps, i'm juz nt putting in extra effort to b a good fren. or perhaps, i'm juz nt a wonderful after taking days n days of medical leave.
i'm trying to best to b whu i realli wan to b. but..the uneasiness i got juz stop mi time n time again. i cant b whu i wanna b.whenever i crap, i juz feel so uncomfortable coz the crowd's no longer e same as before.
i'm all stuck now. e urge to withdraw from sajc juz get stronger each dae. it's now so much ta i juz feel like withdrawing tmr aftnoon. e workload, e diff grp of clique, e uneasiness i hav in sch..they're juz all encouraging mi to leave.. howeva, ODAC n e easy route to uni juz stop mi from leaving. wat do i hav to say now? leave? or nt to leave? i dun knoe. i'm juz so lost..i need someone to tok to...
my mum's aslp..and i realli hope ta i'm able to tok to shannon... realli realli pray ta she'll reply to mi.
quote of the dae: -nil-my mind's blocked for e time being.
