God is faithful in the promises that He has made with us. Whenever i am feeling disappointed, He is there with me. His words came surrounding me like never before. Last nite, karen(dialect church)called me and asked abt my results. We chatted for quite a while and she started to pray for me over the phone. it was a really nice gesture of hers. I feel really better. And something better came popping out! Straight aft we ended the prayer, rou xin's call came in. we talked for a long time(it's long coz it's e first time i ever tok to her for such a long time).
toking to her not only gave me spiritual strength but has also renewed my tinking. instead of dwellin over e grades ta i got n why i got such grades, i shld, instead, thk God for being there with me during my exams. i know ta i hav given my best shot, no regrets, no sadness. e grades ta i've gotten is part of God's plan. To many of us, we might find it ridiculous and even may 'hate' God for Him breaking His promises in not granting us the grades that we want.
dear frens, i do feel sad, i do feel angry initially. But now, i've gotten it over n hav straightened my thinking. all these r part of God's plan. i know that He is preparing me for a higher calling in life and that He wants to place me in another school which i am provided wif more opportunities to learn and a place where i can impacted the lives of the pp ard me.
Pastor preached that God gives us a calling which we like to do. one thing ta i know is that i will nt be in Sajc and i doubt i will ever return there. 15 pts, in the first place, hardly gives me ani chance to get into it and the place totally doesnt suit me. i dun like the environment. yea, so it's time for me to get gg and prepare for my future. =)
i'm realli grateful to God for placing so many angels in my life. Angels like shannon, yuzhen, joyce, ray, felicia, rou xin, karen and even maria(my dialect church leader). All of them hav been there for me when i need them. They hav no doubt, bring me closer to e Lord. =)
my dad's in china now, so i do nt know how i am gg to explain to him abt the fall in grades for my 'o's. As for my mum, i know that she is rather disappointed n not to forget that she got a shock when she heard my results. In her mind, she was tinking wat happened to me? Why did everyone's grades improved except for mine? yeap, i told her i do nt know why. Back at home, she knows ta i'm feeling sad n did nt place ani blame on me for getting such results. instead, she comforted me and said that i had given my best and yeap, she just wants me to be hapi.
Whenever i hear abt how much my frens' parents pressurised them over scoring well in tests n exams, i feel really v blessed. because i know ta i hav a father whu doesnt blame me for not doing well in my studies and a mother whu always brew and buy lotsa tonics n bird nest for my health and always there to ask me to take a break whenever she sees me studying real hard.
my life is realli blessed. Like wat ray had mentioned, i had a v blessed sec sch life with supporting, diligent yet playful classmates. Everyone in 4e1 treated me like their close fren and the class is so much like a home to me. thks lot. =)
quote of the dae: Isaiah 55:8-9 "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,"says the LORD. "For as the heavens are higer than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts higher than your thoughts." -my kind of life-
