I missed school today. Perhaps the tiredness in me is really driving me crazy. I need more sleep!
Let's just divert our attention back to last night's entry…
Attending service 5 and 6 yesterday "opened" up my eyes. Yes! It has widened my visions and has definitely brought me up to a whole new level of faith! Both of the sermons of services 5 and 6 focused on dreams and visions. I was taken aback when Pastor Ulf told us that he will be preaching on dreams and visions in service 6. In my mind, I kept asking why? Why is he preaching the same word again? Then it came to a point of time that he said that he will preached this message with additional details. Great! And true indeed, he preached by giving totally new examples, events and everything! Though the theme was the same, the details were different! Revelations came one after another as I sat through the service. And these revelations are my future! They are the things that I have wished for when I celebrated my birthday in church yesterday!
Towards the end of both the services, Pastor Ulf prayed for us, selected groups of people of course! And the thing that puzzled me is why did he get the polytechnic students to go down to the stage twice? I admit that deep in my heart I long for his impartation. I long for him to lay hands on me! Feeling disappointed, I have no choice but to stand by the truth that for every decision Pastor Ulf has made, God has a purpose for it. I know it, but when will the JC students ever get to go down? But now, it no longer matter because just by looking at how Pastor Ulf prayed for them, the hunger for me to search for God’s presence in my heart has grown!
Even though Pastor Ulf did not lay hands on me, I was grateful that I was personally prayed for TWICE yesterday! Yes! Two great leaders in my life prayed for my wishes. On top of that, the things that they spoke were somewhat 90% similar! Yes! Double portion of anointing and prayers! I feel so blessed! And yes, both of them touched on my studies, touched on my becoming a great testimony in school and being a light in JJC!
Thinking back, I realise that it is possible for me to do well! It has just been my laziness that has been excusing me from excelling in my studies. Yes, I seem to be making use of God's grace in my life nowadays! I need to commit myself to my schoolwork and studies once again! So that God's grace will even more abundantly in my life though I do not ask that from Him! God sees my effort, and I will keep up to my promise!
Having failed to meet the minimum study hour requirement for the past two weeks, I do feel guilty. For many times, I bombarded myself with questions like, ‘What is happening to me?’, ‘Is this the real Lynn?’, ‘Do not I feel guilty having failed to meet the simple 15-hour requirement?’ and ‘If I can even fulfil such a simple thing, how can my CGL give me more things to do?’
Yes, so this week, I am making a new commitment to study for at least 15 hours (outside school hours). I need to catch up with my Promos revision. Speaking of that, I have yet to mention how embarrassed I felt whenever I meet up with my secondary school classmates. I would say that majority of them are excelling in their studies. Even those who are in JJC, they are all scoring 'A's. Yes, they are the people who got exempted from Promos! And my friends in ACJC and SAJC were simply duper! Hahs. It does feel great to know that they are doing well. But it feels yet another thing when I start asking myself about my results. Yes, I got D (math) C (chem.) E (phy). I even got a E8 for my AO Chinese! Alright, I do feel frustrated over my results. I will work hard and prove you wrong! Lols. And now, I need to make sure that I get at least a D7 for AO Chinese. If not, I can forget about getting into a local university.
Back to my studies..
*This is Singapore, not any other part of the country. Lols* -my kind of life-
