Weeh! As I sit down to blog, my heart seems to be pumping at an increasing speed. Nahs! This has nothing to do with the fear caused in this seventh month thingy, but rather, I am feeling very very excited about this blog entry. Somehow, it will be a very special one(at least to me la!).
I shall not and will not blog anything regarding my chemistry paper this morning. Hahs.
I feel just so great physically simply because I went to jog in the afternoon! There will at least be a reduce in the guilt level of mine after consuming 'tonnes' of junkfood over the past 3 days. As usual, friday nights are reserved for cell group meetings(CGM).
Somehow, I felt a little different while doing the song sheet today. The main reason was that there were four songs instead of the usual three. Next, the layout of the song sheet is rather different from usual in my point of view. And last of all, I love the verse that I had chosen! The verse can be found in 2 Samuel 2:50. =)
Today's cell group message brought forth many revelations. Most importantly is that the message has renewed my 'dying' mind. Somehow, my faith level has been increased when Shannon preached the word. As she goes along, my mind were crowded with the past victories that God has given to me! Thinking back, it was really a miracle for me. Let's share this..When I was still in Sec. 3, band practices were so hectic that we had almost 6 practices every week in preparation for then then SYF. After the SYF, we, the rising leaders, had to meet up almost everyday to plan events and stuff for the main band and the Sec.1 band. Despite the busy schedule of mine, and the tiredness in me, I still managed to stay awake at night to finish my work and in the daytime to listen to the teachings of my teachers. And somehow, by the grace of the LORD, I was the top 5 students in my whole level! Hmm..Hahs.
At that instant, I kept thinking to myself to as why I keep restricting myself from joining a CCA that requires high commitment level right now in JJC. Next, I simply cannot explain why I am no longer perform as well as I used to. Alright, let's just face this. Have I become 'stupidier' or.. are my brain cells beginning to die as I 'age'? Think the main reason should be the lack of motivation and the unwillingness in me to chiong for my studies the way I did previously. Hmm..please help me, Lord!
Yes! I do admit that thoughts of backslidding do occur to me. This is especially when I get so tempted by the freedom and time my unsaved friends have! Their burden in lives seem to be so much lighter than mine! For many times, I thought of giving up, BUT the goodness of the Lord just kept me on. I will always remember what Shannon has said while giving me(or us, since she was teaching me, ray, feli, my sis n felix) bible study. She taught me that ALL the trails and tribulations that I am facing right now are what I CAN overcome! If not, God would not even bother to let the devil plan such plots in our lives! Yes, I overcame my previous obctacles, and that explains why I am still standing strong before the LORD! And now, I know that I can overcome my current struggles too! I will hang on! And cling onto You tightly!(Hahs, Shannon, if you happen to read this..Dun you find that a little familiar?)
My first love for Jesus happened way back in 1999, when I was in Pri. 5. However, I left God the following year. But thank God!! Because I found my way back into His embracing arms in 2002! Praise the LORD! Like what Shannon asked, where has our first love for Jesus gone to now? The love seems to get weaker at times, especially when I get just so complacent with my spiritual growth. My first love for Him in 2002 was.. quite a sudden one. I know that I have found a love that was able to filled my empty heart of many years, and I was there to receive altar call. But, I was not ready to commit like the way many new friends(or rather, the worldly people) think. Somehow, the commitment thing did not revolve round my mind when I responded to the altar call. The presence and love of God in CHC must be very strong in order for me to forget such stuff. Hahs! On top of that, the love of Christ was so strong that I just went back to service again and again. Thinking back, I remembered trying to 'escape' from service the third week after I joined CHC with the excuse that I will be receiving my scholarship and thus, there wont be snough time for me to change and go to church. Alright, it was indeed a lame excuse. However, I felt so guilty after that because outside the community centre, which is opposite of CHC, I saw lotsa youths standing at the entrance and lobby. At that time, I was asking myself why I was running away from CHC after responding to the altar call? Hey, that made 'lotsa' sense in me, and since then, I promised myself to attend services regularly each week.
I had lotsa first love with Him. My first love for Him when I first spoke in tongues, joined a ministry, served the cell group, made sacrifices and everything!
Arise and Build 2005 was something I looked forward to when pastors in the church first announced its existence this year. The amount to pledge was certainly a great issue to discussed. But, I was not afraid to give because I recalled the very first time I gave to CHC's building fund in 2003. At that time, I remembered that it was the last 'lap' to clearing the few(just a few) millions dollars of our current church building. As a Sec. 3 student with only $25/week, I decided to save up my money daily and give $50. Well, as a new born christian and a shopping kid at that time made it hard for me to save $10, let alone $50! But, the moment I got the $50 ready, my mother came passing me a red packet with one $50 note in it! It was from one of my relatives who came to Singapore at that time! Wah, even before I gave the money(please do remember that at that time, I had just accumulated the money, not gave!!), my blessings came in! Hey all, what's more is there for you to expect?
Whenever I fail in life, God's word never fails to cheer me up. Like what I have always been told and have told others, failure is not fatal. So, let's all learn from the mistakes incurred in the failures and stand up strong again! For..a winner never quits and a quitter never wins!
Back then when I joined Dialect Church as my ministry, I had no idea why I joined it and what was the reason behind me joining it. Somehow, I felt that I joined just for the sake of..joining. Duhs! But, things began to have a new turn when I attend the dialect services and help out in their preparation for the service. From there, I have learnt how to serve the Lord, which is equal to serving His people. For the bible states that the way we treat our brothers-in-Christ will be the way we treat God! Seeing the smiles of the elderly attending(most of them are old i age!!) the service opens up my heart. And it serves as a constant reminder for me to continue serving God and His people with my smile. =) Even till today, I am experiencing new encounters with different elderly and all these open up my thinking of this world. Serving God is adventurous!
All these examples just flashed past my mind when Shannon was preaching in cgm earlier on. Isn't it amazing to see how colourful God has painted my life to be? I am so excited over the greater extent of goodness He will be bringing into my life in the future!
Hahs! Alright, I got penalised during CG's games time! And my 'job' was to sing the tune of 'Happy Birthday' with only 3 words, who, what and har?. And the lyrics in each sentence on the birthday song must be different. It was rather a fun experience! Despite the confusion of thw words, I still enjoyed singing the song for the pleasure of my cell gorup members! Hahs!
*a word in season is here to build me up* -my kind of life-
